feed02.fireside.fm Tue, 28 Apr 2026 06:16:40 -0500 Fireside (https://fireside.fm) The Poet (delayed) https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm Tue, 28 Apr 2026 05:15:04 -0600 Welcome to The Poet Delayed Podcast! This podcast is a space for real, honest, and meaningful conversation. I explore poetry, literature, healing, relationships, and the deep importance of connection—not just with others, but also with ourselves. While we talk about the beauty and significance of relationships, we also dive into the vital act of staying true to who we are. It’s easy to lose ourselves in the world and in the connections we cherish, but this space is a reminder that being in relationship with others should never mean abandoning ourselves. Whether I’m sharing my own journey or talking with guests, my goal is to create a space where stories and experiences bring us closer together. I believe that through sharing, we find understanding, and through connection, we find a sense of belonging. "May I be I is the only prayer - not may I be great or good or beautiful or wise or strong." - E.E. Cummings en-us © 2026 Scott R. Edgar episodic using poetry to discover meaning in life Scott Edgar Welcome to The Poet Delayed Podcast! This podcast is a space for real, honest, and meaningful conversation. I explore poetry, literature, healing, relationships, and the deep importance of connection—not just with others, but also with ourselves. While we talk about the beauty and significance of relationships, we also dive into the vital act of staying true to who we are. It’s easy to lose ourselves in the world and in the connections we cherish, but this space is a reminder that being in relationship with others should never mean abandoning ourselves. Whether I’m sharing my own journey or talking with guests, my goal is to create a space where stories and experiences bring us closer together. I believe that through sharing, we find understanding, and through connection, we find a sense of belonging. "May I be I is the only prayer - not may I be great or good or beautiful or wise or strong." - E.E. Cummings false Poetry, therapy, trauma, recovery, relationships, connection, authenticity Scott Edgar poetdelayed@gmail.com Episode 78: When We Are Tired https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/78 1f24192a-f8c1-4df3-b262-1af74871add5 Tue, 28 Apr 2026 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 78 When We Are Tired full 1 Scott Edgar There is a quote attributed to Nietzsche that reads: When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago. I’ve found that to be true. When we’re exhausted physically, emotionally, or psychologically, old fears return, clarity fades, and problems that are solvable can feel impossible. We forget who we are. We forget what we’ve survived. We forget that help exists. In this episode, I reflect on fatigue, overwhelm, and the temptation to surrender ourselves when life feels too heavy. Drawing from my own poems, Forgotten Walls and Terrible Potential, along with images from Théoden and Wormtongue in The Lord of the Rings, I explore what happens when the fog sets in—and how we begin to lift it. This is an episode about remembering who you are when you’re tired, asking for help when you need it, and acting with integrity in the next honest hour. 24:24 false There is a quote attributed to Nietzsche that reads: When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago.

I’ve found that to be true.

When we’re exhausted physically, emotionally, or psychologically, old fears return, clarity fades, and problems that are solvable can feel impossible. We forget who we are. We forget what we’ve survived. We forget that help exists.

In this episode, I reflect on fatigue, overwhelm, and the temptation to surrender ourselves when life feels too heavy. Drawing from my own poems, Forgotten Walls and Terrible Potential, along with images from Théoden and Wormtongue in The Lord of the Rings, I explore what happens when the fog sets in—and how we begin to lift it.

This is an episode about remembering who you are when you’re tired, asking for help when you need it, and acting with integrity in the next honest hour.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity There is a quote attributed to Nietzsche that reads: When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago.

I’ve found that to be true.

When we’re exhausted physically, emotionally, or psychologically, old fears return, clarity fades, and problems that are solvable can feel impossible. We forget who we are. We forget what we’ve survived. We forget that help exists.

In this episode, I reflect on fatigue, overwhelm, and the temptation to surrender ourselves when life feels too heavy. Drawing from my own poems, Forgotten Walls and Terrible Potential, along with images from Théoden and Wormtongue in The Lord of the Rings, I explore what happens when the fog sets in—and how we begin to lift it.

This is an episode about remembering who you are when you’re tired, asking for help when you need it, and acting with integrity in the next honest hour.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> There is a quote attributed to Nietzsche that reads: When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago.

I’ve found that to be true.

When we’re exhausted physically, emotionally, or psychologically, old fears return, clarity fades, and problems that are solvable can feel impossible. We forget who we are. We forget what we’ve survived. We forget that help exists.

In this episode, I reflect on fatigue, overwhelm, and the temptation to surrender ourselves when life feels too heavy. Drawing from my own poems, Forgotten Walls and Terrible Potential, along with images from Théoden and Wormtongue in The Lord of the Rings, I explore what happens when the fog sets in—and how we begin to lift it.

This is an episode about remembering who you are when you’re tired, asking for help when you need it, and acting with integrity in the next honest hour.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+wowlSifZ ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 77: Why Things Fall Apart: Beauty Is Not Structure https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/77 867686e8-eb3d-45da-ae81-bea8dee5b184 Tue, 21 Apr 2026 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 77 Why Things Fall Apart: Beauty Is Not Structure full 1 Scott Edgar Why Things Fall Apart he tried and so did she but neither understood the other and that is how things fall apart despite the trying In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I reflect on why some relationships that feel meaningful, beautiful, and deeply connected still fail to hold over time. Using the metaphor of a beautiful building with a weak internal frame, I explore the difference between appearance and foundation—between chemistry and character, connection and structure. I talk about how trust, communication, comprehension, consideration, repair, and boundaries form the unseen architecture of healthy relationships. I also reflect on how many of us become “water”—adapting ourselves to unstable dynamics rather than building an internal structure of our own. More than an episode about romance, this is an honest reflection on friendships, family, self-respect, and the wisdom of learning what can truly hold. 16:11 false Why Things Fall Apart

he tried
and so did she
but neither
understood
the other
and
that is how
things fall apart
despite
the trying

In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I reflect on why some relationships that feel meaningful, beautiful, and deeply connected still fail to hold over time.

Using the metaphor of a beautiful building with a weak internal frame, I explore the difference between appearance and foundation—between chemistry and character, connection and structure.

I talk about how trust, communication, comprehension, consideration, repair, and boundaries form the unseen architecture of healthy relationships. I also reflect on how many of us become “water”—adapting ourselves to unstable dynamics rather than building an internal structure of our own.

More than an episode about romance, this is an honest reflection on friendships, family, self-respect, and the wisdom of learning what can truly hold.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Why Things Fall Apart

he tried
and so did she
but neither
understood
the other
and
that is how
things fall apart
despite
the trying

In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I reflect on why some relationships that feel meaningful, beautiful, and deeply connected still fail to hold over time.

Using the metaphor of a beautiful building with a weak internal frame, I explore the difference between appearance and foundation—between chemistry and character, connection and structure.

I talk about how trust, communication, comprehension, consideration, repair, and boundaries form the unseen architecture of healthy relationships. I also reflect on how many of us become “water”—adapting ourselves to unstable dynamics rather than building an internal structure of our own.

More than an episode about romance, this is an honest reflection on friendships, family, self-respect, and the wisdom of learning what can truly hold.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> Why Things Fall Apart

he tried
and so did she
but neither
understood
the other
and
that is how
things fall apart
despite
the trying

In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I reflect on why some relationships that feel meaningful, beautiful, and deeply connected still fail to hold over time.

Using the metaphor of a beautiful building with a weak internal frame, I explore the difference between appearance and foundation—between chemistry and character, connection and structure.

I talk about how trust, communication, comprehension, consideration, repair, and boundaries form the unseen architecture of healthy relationships. I also reflect on how many of us become “water”—adapting ourselves to unstable dynamics rather than building an internal structure of our own.

More than an episode about romance, this is an honest reflection on friendships, family, self-respect, and the wisdom of learning what can truly hold.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+ffr5oo55 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 76: A Tree, a Star or a River: When Giving Becomes Loss https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/76 0400ac51-6433-4593-b550-769cd561e812 Tue, 14 Apr 2026 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 76 A Tree, a Star or a River: When Giving Becomes Loss full Scott Edgar Some giving comes from fullness. Some comes from fear. One sustains you. The other slowly empties you. In this episode, I explore the difference—and the truth we don’t like to face: You cannot continue to give what you don’t replenish. There is always a reconciliation. 10:34 false A Tree, a Star or a River: When Giving Becomes Loss

What does it really mean to give?

In this episode, I explore a question that has been quietly shaping my life: Where does our giving come from? Because not all giving is the same—and some forms of it come at a cost we don’t see until it’s too late.

Drawing from my own writing—including On Becoming a Black Hole and On Being a River—I walk through three models of giving:
• the tree, which gives until it disappears
• the star, which shines while slowly burning itself out
• and the river, which fills… and then overflows

Along the way, I unpack a hard truth: you cannot continue to give what you don’t replenish. There is always a reconciliation.

This episode is about recognizing the difference between giving from fear and giving from fullness—and why only one of those is sustainable.

If you’ve ever found yourself exhausted, overextended, or quietly losing yourself in the act of giving, this conversation is for you.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity A Tree, a Star or a River: When Giving Becomes Loss

What does it really mean to give?

In this episode, I explore a question that has been quietly shaping my life: Where does our giving come from? Because not all giving is the same—and some forms of it come at a cost we don’t see until it’s too late.

Drawing from my own writing—including On Becoming a Black Hole and On Being a River—I walk through three models of giving:
• the tree, which gives until it disappears
• the star, which shines while slowly burning itself out
• and the river, which fills… and then overflows

Along the way, I unpack a hard truth: you cannot continue to give what you don’t replenish. There is always a reconciliation.

This episode is about recognizing the difference between giving from fear and giving from fullness—and why only one of those is sustainable.

If you’ve ever found yourself exhausted, overextended, or quietly losing yourself in the act of giving, this conversation is for you.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> A Tree, a Star or a River: When Giving Becomes Loss

What does it really mean to give?

In this episode, I explore a question that has been quietly shaping my life: Where does our giving come from? Because not all giving is the same—and some forms of it come at a cost we don’t see until it’s too late.

Drawing from my own writing—including On Becoming a Black Hole and On Being a River—I walk through three models of giving:
• the tree, which gives until it disappears
• the star, which shines while slowly burning itself out
• and the river, which fills… and then overflows

Along the way, I unpack a hard truth: you cannot continue to give what you don’t replenish. There is always a reconciliation.

This episode is about recognizing the difference between giving from fear and giving from fullness—and why only one of those is sustainable.

If you’ve ever found yourself exhausted, overextended, or quietly losing yourself in the act of giving, this conversation is for you.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+8Qtskltf ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 75: The Gateway To Understanding https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/75 6bfb55e6-9d0e-44f4-b94e-ba726d62c01b Thu, 09 Apr 2026 07:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 75 The Gateway To Understanding full Scott Edgar We spend our lives trying to avoid uncertainty. Fix it. Solve it. Get out of it. But what if that’s the mistake? This episode is about what happens when you don’t leave. When you stay in the discomfort long enough for something to reveal itself. 1:04:40 false In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I am joined by returning guest Josh Baron for a wide-ranging conversation on uncertainty, growth, and what it means to truly live inside the unknown.

Drawing from the Tao Te Ching’s line—“darkness within darkness, the gateway to all understanding”—we explore a central idea: uncertainty isn’t something to escape, but something to enter.

Together, we examine why we instinctively avoid uncertainty—fear, discomfort, and the pressure to “have it figured out”—and what happens when we resist that impulse and instead choose to stay. Through personal stories, philosophy, and lived experience, they uncover several key insights:
• That uncertainty is not the exception, but the condition of being alive
• That clarity is not forced, but revealed over time
• That many of our reactions are not to reality itself, but to our interpretation of it under pressure
• And that growth often requires moving through discomfort rather than around it

The conversation moves fluidly through topics like faith, science, parenting, identity, integrity, and even music theory—illustrating how tension, dissonance, and uncertainty are not obstacles to understanding, but necessary parts of it.

At its core, this episode is an invitation:
to sit a little longer,
to resist the urge to resolve too quickly,
and to discover what becomes visible when we don’t leave the doorway.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, uncertainty, creativity, dealing with uncertainty, personal growth, emotional resilience, overcoming fear, clarity and decision making, tao te ching, lao tzu, meaning of life In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I am joined by returning guest Josh Baron for a wide-ranging conversation on uncertainty, growth, and what it means to truly live inside the unknown.

Drawing from the Tao Te Ching’s line—“darkness within darkness, the gateway to all understanding”—we explore a central idea: uncertainty isn’t something to escape, but something to enter.

Together, we examine why we instinctively avoid uncertainty—fear, discomfort, and the pressure to “have it figured out”—and what happens when we resist that impulse and instead choose to stay. Through personal stories, philosophy, and lived experience, they uncover several key insights:
• That uncertainty is not the exception, but the condition of being alive
• That clarity is not forced, but revealed over time
• That many of our reactions are not to reality itself, but to our interpretation of it under pressure
• And that growth often requires moving through discomfort rather than around it

The conversation moves fluidly through topics like faith, science, parenting, identity, integrity, and even music theory—illustrating how tension, dissonance, and uncertainty are not obstacles to understanding, but necessary parts of it.

At its core, this episode is an invitation:
to sit a little longer,
to resist the urge to resolve too quickly,
and to discover what becomes visible when we don’t leave the doorway.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I am joined by returning guest Josh Baron for a wide-ranging conversation on uncertainty, growth, and what it means to truly live inside the unknown.

Drawing from the Tao Te Ching’s line—“darkness within darkness, the gateway to all understanding”—we explore a central idea: uncertainty isn’t something to escape, but something to enter.

Together, we examine why we instinctively avoid uncertainty—fear, discomfort, and the pressure to “have it figured out”—and what happens when we resist that impulse and instead choose to stay. Through personal stories, philosophy, and lived experience, they uncover several key insights:
• That uncertainty is not the exception, but the condition of being alive
• That clarity is not forced, but revealed over time
• That many of our reactions are not to reality itself, but to our interpretation of it under pressure
• And that growth often requires moving through discomfort rather than around it

The conversation moves fluidly through topics like faith, science, parenting, identity, integrity, and even music theory—illustrating how tension, dissonance, and uncertainty are not obstacles to understanding, but necessary parts of it.

At its core, this episode is an invitation:
to sit a little longer,
to resist the urge to resolve too quickly,
and to discover what becomes visible when we don’t leave the doorway.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+llinv7oz ]]> Scott R. Edgar Josh Baron Episode 74: Part 2. We Die of Being Alive: Move with Integrity https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/74 2f2a35f9-fe71-4632-b59b-63a5415567c0 Tue, 07 Apr 2026 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 74 Part 2. We Die of Being Alive: Move with Integrity full 1 Scott Edgar This is Part 2 of my series "We Die of Being Alive". In the last episode, I talked about how life itself—its uncertainty, loss, and unpredictability—is not a flaw, but the condition of being alive. In this episode, I take that a step further. Because the question isn’t just what happens to us… it’s how we move in what happens to us. Why do we panic, freeze, or act out of fear—and in doing so, abandon ourselves? And what does it look like to stay steady, to face what’s in front of us, and then move with integrity? This episode is about that space between feeling and action… and how learning to live there may be the difference between losing yourself and becoming who you are. 18:25 false This is Part 2 of my series We Die of Being Alive.

In Part 1, I explored a difficult truth: we don’t die because something goes wrong—we die because we are alive. Life includes uncertainty, loss, and things we cannot control.

But that leaves a deeper question:

How do we actually live inside that reality?

In this episode, I explore what happens when fear takes over—when we panic, freeze, or react too quickly—and how, in those moments, we can lose something essential within ourselves.

Through a personal story, reflections on thinkers like Epictetus and Marcus Aurelius, and ideas drawn from poetry and lived experience, this episode moves toward a simple but demanding principle:

Stay in the doorway long enough… then move with integrity.

This isn’t about eliminating fear.
It’s about learning how to face it without abandoning yourself.

I also share practical ways this shows up in daily life—how awareness, boundaries, and what I call “containers” can help reduce overwhelm and allow us to respond more clearly instead of reacting out of pressure.

If Part 1 was about accepting reality,
this episode is about how to move within it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity, authenticity, poetry, self discovery, mindfulness, emotional regulation, self-awareness, personal growth, inner peace, resilience, integrity, self-mastery This is Part 2 of my series We Die of Being Alive.

In Part 1, I explored a difficult truth: we don’t die because something goes wrong—we die because we are alive. Life includes uncertainty, loss, and things we cannot control.

But that leaves a deeper question:

How do we actually live inside that reality?

In this episode, I explore what happens when fear takes over—when we panic, freeze, or react too quickly—and how, in those moments, we can lose something essential within ourselves.

Through a personal story, reflections on thinkers like Epictetus and Marcus Aurelius, and ideas drawn from poetry and lived experience, this episode moves toward a simple but demanding principle:

Stay in the doorway long enough… then move with integrity.

This isn’t about eliminating fear.
It’s about learning how to face it without abandoning yourself.

I also share practical ways this shows up in daily life—how awareness, boundaries, and what I call “containers” can help reduce overwhelm and allow us to respond more clearly instead of reacting out of pressure.

If Part 1 was about accepting reality,
this episode is about how to move within it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> This is Part 2 of my series We Die of Being Alive.

In Part 1, I explored a difficult truth: we don’t die because something goes wrong—we die because we are alive. Life includes uncertainty, loss, and things we cannot control.

But that leaves a deeper question:

How do we actually live inside that reality?

In this episode, I explore what happens when fear takes over—when we panic, freeze, or react too quickly—and how, in those moments, we can lose something essential within ourselves.

Through a personal story, reflections on thinkers like Epictetus and Marcus Aurelius, and ideas drawn from poetry and lived experience, this episode moves toward a simple but demanding principle:

Stay in the doorway long enough… then move with integrity.

This isn’t about eliminating fear.
It’s about learning how to face it without abandoning yourself.

I also share practical ways this shows up in daily life—how awareness, boundaries, and what I call “containers” can help reduce overwhelm and allow us to respond more clearly instead of reacting out of pressure.

If Part 1 was about accepting reality,
this episode is about how to move within it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+9BN3A1sY ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 73: Part 1. We Die of Being Alive: To Avoid Pain is a Death https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/73 9044692d-0794-46cf-8f88-19e305a629fa Tue, 31 Mar 2026 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 73 Part 1. We Die of Being Alive: To Avoid Pain is a Death full 1 Scott Edgar You don’t die of being sick. You die of being alive. But there’s another kind of death— the one that comes when we run from our own lives. This episode is about that tension… and what it means to actually live. 12:55 false Most of us carry a quiet belief: if life feels hard, something must be wrong.

In this episode, I challenge that idea.

Drawing on a line from Michel de Montaigne—“You do not die of being sick, you die of being alive”—I explore what it really means to be alive, and why pain, loss, uncertainty, and struggle are not signs of failure, but expressions of life itself.

But understanding that intellectually is one thing. Living it is another.

When life becomes overwhelming, many of us respond in fear. We avoid. We run. We freeze. And in doing so, we don’t just avoid pain—we begin to step out of our own lives.

This episode is about that tension:
• The difference between knowing that struggle is part of life… and actually facing it
• Why avoidance feels natural—but costs us something deeper
• And how, in trying to protect ourselves from pain, we can lose touch with our own lives

This is Part 1 of a 2-part series. In the next episode, I’ll explore what it looks like to stay, to move, and to live with integrity in the middle of it all.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Most of us carry a quiet belief: if life feels hard, something must be wrong.

In this episode, I challenge that idea.

Drawing on a line from Michel de Montaigne—“You do not die of being sick, you die of being alive”—I explore what it really means to be alive, and why pain, loss, uncertainty, and struggle are not signs of failure, but expressions of life itself.

But understanding that intellectually is one thing. Living it is another.

When life becomes overwhelming, many of us respond in fear. We avoid. We run. We freeze. And in doing so, we don’t just avoid pain—we begin to step out of our own lives.

This episode is about that tension:
• The difference between knowing that struggle is part of life… and actually facing it
• Why avoidance feels natural—but costs us something deeper
• And how, in trying to protect ourselves from pain, we can lose touch with our own lives

This is Part 1 of a 2-part series. In the next episode, I’ll explore what it looks like to stay, to move, and to live with integrity in the middle of it all.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> Most of us carry a quiet belief: if life feels hard, something must be wrong.

In this episode, I challenge that idea.

Drawing on a line from Michel de Montaigne—“You do not die of being sick, you die of being alive”—I explore what it really means to be alive, and why pain, loss, uncertainty, and struggle are not signs of failure, but expressions of life itself.

But understanding that intellectually is one thing. Living it is another.

When life becomes overwhelming, many of us respond in fear. We avoid. We run. We freeze. And in doing so, we don’t just avoid pain—we begin to step out of our own lives.

This episode is about that tension:
• The difference between knowing that struggle is part of life… and actually facing it
• Why avoidance feels natural—but costs us something deeper
• And how, in trying to protect ourselves from pain, we can lose touch with our own lives

This is Part 1 of a 2-part series. In the next episode, I’ll explore what it looks like to stay, to move, and to live with integrity in the middle of it all.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+u7-I-Hxp ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 72: Healing Alchemy https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/72 d5fc260d-e157-4097-9387-72c28109b76d Tue, 16 Dec 2025 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 72 Healing Alchemy full 1 Scott Edgar Healing alchemy: That load you struggle under— Is it lead or gold? It’s an invitation to look at the weight we carry with different eyes—to see our struggles not as proof that we’re failing, but as the raw material for something deeper, stronger, and more meaningful. I brought in a line from Epictetus that has been sitting with me lately, and we explore what it means to transform our suffering instead of being crushed by it. And as a way of saying thank you, I wrote this haiku in calligraphy, framed it, and I’m giving it away. Giveaway details: Email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com with “healing alchemy” in the subject line. I’ll put every entry into a drawing and choose a winner at random. Thanks for joining me. “may I be I is the only prayer—” — e. e. cummings 13:20 false Healing alchemy:
That load you struggle under—
Is it lead or gold?

It’s an invitation to look at the weight we carry with different eyes—to see our struggles not as proof that we’re failing, but as the raw material for something deeper, stronger, and more meaningful. I brought in a line from Epictetus that has been sitting with me lately, and we explore what it means to transform our suffering instead of being crushed by it.

And as a way of saying thank you, I wrote this haiku in calligraphy, framed it, and I’m giving it away.

Giveaway details:
Email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com with “healing alchemy” in the subject line.
I’ll put every entry into a drawing and choose a winner at random.

Thanks for joining me.

“may I be I is the only prayer—”
— e. e. cummings

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Healing alchemy:
That load you struggle under—
Is it lead or gold?

It’s an invitation to look at the weight we carry with different eyes—to see our struggles not as proof that we’re failing, but as the raw material for something deeper, stronger, and more meaningful. I brought in a line from Epictetus that has been sitting with me lately, and we explore what it means to transform our suffering instead of being crushed by it.

And as a way of saying thank you, I wrote this haiku in calligraphy, framed it, and I’m giving it away.

Giveaway details:
Email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com with “healing alchemy” in the subject line.
I’ll put every entry into a drawing and choose a winner at random.

Thanks for joining me.

“may I be I is the only prayer—”
— e. e. cummings

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> Healing alchemy:
That load you struggle under—
Is it lead or gold?

It’s an invitation to look at the weight we carry with different eyes—to see our struggles not as proof that we’re failing, but as the raw material for something deeper, stronger, and more meaningful. I brought in a line from Epictetus that has been sitting with me lately, and we explore what it means to transform our suffering instead of being crushed by it.

And as a way of saying thank you, I wrote this haiku in calligraphy, framed it, and I’m giving it away.

Giveaway details:
Email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com with “healing alchemy” in the subject line.
I’ll put every entry into a drawing and choose a winner at random.

Thanks for joining me.

“may I be I is the only prayer—”
— e. e. cummings

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+Z2N0eH0r ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 71: Letting Go https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/71 823bf36c-1efc-4363-91cb-b18732441aaa Tue, 11 Nov 2025 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 71 Letting Go full 1 Scott Edgar We hold on so tightly sometimes—trying to shape outcomes, control people, or force clarity when life just isn’t ready to give it. But nature reminds us: the leaf releases when its season is done. In this week’s episode of The Poet (delayed), I talk with my friend Sarah Daniels about the quiet strength of letting go—about learning to release what we can’t control, trusting the timing of life (or God, the universe, whatever name you give it), and finding peace in that surrender. Letting go isn’t easy. It’s uncomfortable. It’s scary. But it’s also where calm begins. 45:17 false Nature's beauty is
The result of letting go
Life's beauty is too

We hold on so tightly sometimes—trying to shape outcomes, control people, or force clarity when life just isn’t ready to give it. But nature reminds us: the leaf releases when its season is done.

In this week’s episode of The Poet (delayed), I talk with my friend Sarah Daniels about the quiet strength of letting go—about learning to release what we can’t control, trusting the timing of life (or God, the universe, whatever name you give it), and finding peace in that surrender.

Letting go isn’t easy. It’s uncomfortable. It’s scary. But it’s also where calm begins.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

Special Guest: Sarah Daniels.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Nature's beauty is
The result of letting go
Life's beauty is too

We hold on so tightly sometimes—trying to shape outcomes, control people, or force clarity when life just isn’t ready to give it. But nature reminds us: the leaf releases when its season is done.

In this week’s episode of The Poet (delayed), I talk with my friend Sarah Daniels about the quiet strength of letting go—about learning to release what we can’t control, trusting the timing of life (or God, the universe, whatever name you give it), and finding peace in that surrender.

Letting go isn’t easy. It’s uncomfortable. It’s scary. But it’s also where calm begins.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

Special Guest: Sarah Daniels.

]]> Nature's beauty is
The result of letting go
Life's beauty is too

We hold on so tightly sometimes—trying to shape outcomes, control people, or force clarity when life just isn’t ready to give it. But nature reminds us: the leaf releases when its season is done.

In this week’s episode of The Poet (delayed), I talk with my friend Sarah Daniels about the quiet strength of letting go—about learning to release what we can’t control, trusting the timing of life (or God, the universe, whatever name you give it), and finding peace in that surrender.

Letting go isn’t easy. It’s uncomfortable. It’s scary. But it’s also where calm begins.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

Special Guest: Sarah Daniels.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+FWr1b0tR ]]> Scott R. Edgar Sarah Daniels Episode 70: What Steals Your Sleep?: The Human Condition and the Need for Connection https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/70 7d58373a-514f-40e7-b39d-214c42144fac Tue, 16 Sep 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 70 What Steals Your Sleep?: The Human Condition and the Need for Connection full 1 Scott Edgar In this special episode, recorded live at "Torchlight" last April, I reflect on the defining losses, trials, and awakenings of my life through the lens of poetry and personal story. Drawing on Nietzsche’s insight that “to live is to suffer, to survive is to find meaning in the suffering,” I explore how our deepest wounds can become bridges—not barriers—to human connection. This is an honest meditation on grief, growth, and the strange alchemy that happens when we turn toward our pain and find each other there. 1:01:59 false In this special episode, recorded live at "Torchlight" last April, I reflect on the defining losses, trials, and awakenings of my life through the lens of poetry and personal story. Drawing on Nietzsche’s insight that “to live is to suffer, to survive is to find meaning in the suffering,” I explore how our deepest wounds can become bridges—not barriers—to human connection.

This is an honest meditation on grief, growth, and the strange alchemy that happens when we turn toward our pain and find each other there.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this special episode, recorded live at "Torchlight" last April, I reflect on the defining losses, trials, and awakenings of my life through the lens of poetry and personal story. Drawing on Nietzsche’s insight that “to live is to suffer, to survive is to find meaning in the suffering,” I explore how our deepest wounds can become bridges—not barriers—to human connection.

This is an honest meditation on grief, growth, and the strange alchemy that happens when we turn toward our pain and find each other there.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> In this special episode, recorded live at "Torchlight" last April, I reflect on the defining losses, trials, and awakenings of my life through the lens of poetry and personal story. Drawing on Nietzsche’s insight that “to live is to suffer, to survive is to find meaning in the suffering,” I explore how our deepest wounds can become bridges—not barriers—to human connection.

This is an honest meditation on grief, growth, and the strange alchemy that happens when we turn toward our pain and find each other there.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

["The Ghost of a Beating Heart", "My Mother Sleeps" and "Haiku Village"](My books of poetry.)

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+mMkEyRpx ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 69: The Rumble We Ignore https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/69 a855011d-e9ec-4143-a4f5-944178f36535 Wed, 27 Aug 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 69 The Rumble We Ignore full 1 Scott Edgar When Vesuvius Rumbled in its deep, Pompeii’s Blue skies were a lie. Sometimes our gut warns us to leave, but we stay. Other times, it calls us to act, but fear keeps us frozen. And in both moments, the mind often steps in—trying to quiet what the body already knows. This week on The Poet (delayed), we explore what happens when we ignore that deep inner rumble. Why we override our intuition. Why we stay when we should go. Why we hide when we’re being called to step forward. And what it might look like to finally trust the wisdom of the gut over the noise of the mind. 30:04 false When Vesuvius
Rumbled in her deep, Pompeii’s
Blue skies were a lie.

Sometimes our gut warns us to leave, but we stay.
Other times, it calls us to act, but fear keeps us frozen.
And in both moments, the mind often steps in—trying to quiet what the body already knows.

This week on The Poet (delayed), we explore what happens when we ignore that deep inner rumble. Why we override our intuition. Why we stay when we should go. Why we hide when we’re being called to step forward. And what it might look like to finally trust the wisdom of the gut over the noise of the mind.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity When Vesuvius
Rumbled in her deep, Pompeii’s
Blue skies were a lie.

Sometimes our gut warns us to leave, but we stay.
Other times, it calls us to act, but fear keeps us frozen.
And in both moments, the mind often steps in—trying to quiet what the body already knows.

This week on The Poet (delayed), we explore what happens when we ignore that deep inner rumble. Why we override our intuition. Why we stay when we should go. Why we hide when we’re being called to step forward. And what it might look like to finally trust the wisdom of the gut over the noise of the mind.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> When Vesuvius
Rumbled in her deep, Pompeii’s
Blue skies were a lie.

Sometimes our gut warns us to leave, but we stay.
Other times, it calls us to act, but fear keeps us frozen.
And in both moments, the mind often steps in—trying to quiet what the body already knows.

This week on The Poet (delayed), we explore what happens when we ignore that deep inner rumble. Why we override our intuition. Why we stay when we should go. Why we hide when we’re being called to step forward. And what it might look like to finally trust the wisdom of the gut over the noise of the mind.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+EC1hWXST ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 68: Go to the Limits of Your Longing https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/68 e3d77b11-ce8f-45b9-a9d7-b66534382fb8 Tue, 29 Jul 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 68 Go to the Limits of Your Longing full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined this episode by Chris and Elise Jones and Ali Talbot. We gathered in the warm, book-lined library at Chris and Elise Jones’ home and just talked. We read Rainer Maria Rilke’s poem *Go to the Limits of Your Longing*, and from there we let the conversation unfold naturally. We talked about suffering — not in a heavy, hopeless way, but in the way you talk when you know that pain and beauty are woven into the same thread. We explored what it means to surrender to life’s difficulties instead of resisting them. We laughed about childhood memories, tofu meatloaf, and the glory of Saturday morning cartoons. We got real about trauma, caretaking, creating from heartbreak, and what it means to show up for each other when life breaks us open. This episode is about sitting with what’s hard, about finding connection through vulnerability, and about how creativity — whether it’s poetry, baking, music, or just making something out of pain — can save us in quiet, powerful ways. 1:39:55 false God speaks to each of us as he makes us,
then walks with us silently out of the night.
These are the words we dimly hear:
You, sent out beyond your recall,
go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.
Flare up like a flame
and make big shadows I can move in.
Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don’t let yourself lose me.
Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.
Give me your hand.

I was joined this episode by Chris and Elise Jones and Ali Talbot. We gathered in the warm, book-lined library at Chris and Elise Jones’ home and just talked.

We read Rainer Maria Rilke’s poem Go to the Limits of Your Longing, and from there we let the conversation unfold naturally. We talked about suffering — not in a heavy, hopeless way, but in the way you talk when you know that pain and beauty are woven into the same thread. We explored what it means to surrender to life’s difficulties instead of resisting them. We laughed about childhood memories, tofu meatloaf, and the glory of Saturday morning cartoons. We got real about trauma, caretaking, creating from heartbreak, and what it means to show up for each other when life breaks us open.

This episode is about sitting with what’s hard, about finding connection through vulnerability, and about how creativity — whether it’s poetry, baking, music, or just making something out of pain — can save us in quiet, powerful ways.

It’s also about joy. Tangents. Belly laughs. Tears. Root beer ice cream sandwiches.

Give it a listen. It’s not polished, but it’s real. And sometimes that’s exactly what we need most.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Ali Talbot, Christian Jones, and Elise Jones.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity God speaks to each of us as he makes us,
then walks with us silently out of the night.
These are the words we dimly hear:
You, sent out beyond your recall,
go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.
Flare up like a flame
and make big shadows I can move in.
Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don’t let yourself lose me.
Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.
Give me your hand.

I was joined this episode by Chris and Elise Jones and Ali Talbot. We gathered in the warm, book-lined library at Chris and Elise Jones’ home and just talked.

We read Rainer Maria Rilke’s poem Go to the Limits of Your Longing, and from there we let the conversation unfold naturally. We talked about suffering — not in a heavy, hopeless way, but in the way you talk when you know that pain and beauty are woven into the same thread. We explored what it means to surrender to life’s difficulties instead of resisting them. We laughed about childhood memories, tofu meatloaf, and the glory of Saturday morning cartoons. We got real about trauma, caretaking, creating from heartbreak, and what it means to show up for each other when life breaks us open.

This episode is about sitting with what’s hard, about finding connection through vulnerability, and about how creativity — whether it’s poetry, baking, music, or just making something out of pain — can save us in quiet, powerful ways.

It’s also about joy. Tangents. Belly laughs. Tears. Root beer ice cream sandwiches.

Give it a listen. It’s not polished, but it’s real. And sometimes that’s exactly what we need most.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Ali Talbot, Christian Jones, and Elise Jones.

]]> God speaks to each of us as he makes us,
then walks with us silently out of the night.
These are the words we dimly hear:
You, sent out beyond your recall,
go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.
Flare up like a flame
and make big shadows I can move in.
Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don’t let yourself lose me.
Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.
Give me your hand.

I was joined this episode by Chris and Elise Jones and Ali Talbot. We gathered in the warm, book-lined library at Chris and Elise Jones’ home and just talked.

We read Rainer Maria Rilke’s poem Go to the Limits of Your Longing, and from there we let the conversation unfold naturally. We talked about suffering — not in a heavy, hopeless way, but in the way you talk when you know that pain and beauty are woven into the same thread. We explored what it means to surrender to life’s difficulties instead of resisting them. We laughed about childhood memories, tofu meatloaf, and the glory of Saturday morning cartoons. We got real about trauma, caretaking, creating from heartbreak, and what it means to show up for each other when life breaks us open.

This episode is about sitting with what’s hard, about finding connection through vulnerability, and about how creativity — whether it’s poetry, baking, music, or just making something out of pain — can save us in quiet, powerful ways.

It’s also about joy. Tangents. Belly laughs. Tears. Root beer ice cream sandwiches.

Give it a listen. It’s not polished, but it’s real. And sometimes that’s exactly what we need most.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Ali Talbot, Christian Jones, and Elise Jones.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+K8MDf19i ]]> Scott R. Edgar Ali Talbot Christian Jones Elise Jones Episode 67: The Sun Just Shines https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/67 05fcb368-2402-44e4-a56b-66e63da75e56 Tue, 24 Jun 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 67 The Sun Just Shines full 1 Scott Edgar Join me and Sherrie Love for a conversation about the slow, brave work of reclaiming ourselves—of getting to know who we are again after life has scattered the pieces. We talk about the struggle, the beauty, and the quiet joy of becoming whole. And we draw wisdom from the sun—how it simply shines, without apology, without hesitation, no matter who is beneath its light. What would it mean for us to live like that? 1:46:43 false Join me and Sherrie Love as we read her poem, Descension and then have a conversation about the slow, brave work of reclaiming ourselves—of getting to know who we are again after life has scattered the pieces. We talk about the struggle, the beauty, and the quiet joy of becoming whole. And we draw wisdom from the sun—how it simply shines, without apology, without hesitation, no matter who is beneath its light. What would it mean for us to live like that?

Descension

Something is shifting.
It has felt heavy and loud
in my soul for a while.
It twists in my stomach
And lurches upward
Squeezing my heart
Tighter and tighter until
I can’t breathe
Then it weaves its slimy black sludge claws
Into my mind
And plants seeds of doubt, fear, hopelessness
Until they bloom
Oozing the thick tar of my descension
What does it mean?
Where does it come from?
I thought I was through
I thought I was in the clear
Didn’t I already learn this lesson?
And I notice the giant black infection
Of fear
expanding, enveloping me
In its unrelenting grip
What am I afraid of?
Fear, what are you trying to show me?
I move toward it now
I embrace it back
Shining every shred of light I have left
Toward it
Begging it to tell me what it wants
And I see
Tiny pricks of light
Piercing through the thick, black darkness
I left my light, my energy, my joy, behind
Somewhere on the trail
Like a lost glove
Being blown away by the wind
Left to dance its way through the wilderness
Is it even still mine?
Did someone find it?
Did they pick up
And turn it over, curious who it belonged to
Did they take it home and try it on?
Did something about my essence affect them in some way?
I miss it
Why do I keep doing that?
Giving away my light?
When all I’m trying to do
Is shine on those I love
On those who need a light in their own darkness
Because I know how deeply painful and dark it is
To wander this world in the dark
Alone
Maybe I overwhelm and blind with my light because I feel so desperate to connect
Yet somehow, my light is too bright, too glaring, too intense
Even for those who, at first, thought they liked basking in the glory
And I remember that even the Sun, who shines unapologetically, gets too hot sometimes
And may unintentionally burn you
But she keeps on shining
And we love her for it
And we welcome the clouds and the rain and night and the winter
And when they come, we miss the Sun
And long for her return
For the pink spring sunrise
For the glowing summer sunsets
And bright autumn mornings
I wonder if the Sun misses me too when the night comes
I wonder if she feels lonely and scared too
Maybe she sees me
As much as I see her

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps and The Ghost of a Beating Heart are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Sherrie Love.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Join me and Sherrie Love as we read her poem, Descension and then have a conversation about the slow, brave work of reclaiming ourselves—of getting to know who we are again after life has scattered the pieces. We talk about the struggle, the beauty, and the quiet joy of becoming whole. And we draw wisdom from the sun—how it simply shines, without apology, without hesitation, no matter who is beneath its light. What would it mean for us to live like that?

Descension

Something is shifting.
It has felt heavy and loud
in my soul for a while.
It twists in my stomach
And lurches upward
Squeezing my heart
Tighter and tighter until
I can’t breathe
Then it weaves its slimy black sludge claws
Into my mind
And plants seeds of doubt, fear, hopelessness
Until they bloom
Oozing the thick tar of my descension
What does it mean?
Where does it come from?
I thought I was through
I thought I was in the clear
Didn’t I already learn this lesson?
And I notice the giant black infection
Of fear
expanding, enveloping me
In its unrelenting grip
What am I afraid of?
Fear, what are you trying to show me?
I move toward it now
I embrace it back
Shining every shred of light I have left
Toward it
Begging it to tell me what it wants
And I see
Tiny pricks of light
Piercing through the thick, black darkness
I left my light, my energy, my joy, behind
Somewhere on the trail
Like a lost glove
Being blown away by the wind
Left to dance its way through the wilderness
Is it even still mine?
Did someone find it?
Did they pick up
And turn it over, curious who it belonged to
Did they take it home and try it on?
Did something about my essence affect them in some way?
I miss it
Why do I keep doing that?
Giving away my light?
When all I’m trying to do
Is shine on those I love
On those who need a light in their own darkness
Because I know how deeply painful and dark it is
To wander this world in the dark
Alone
Maybe I overwhelm and blind with my light because I feel so desperate to connect
Yet somehow, my light is too bright, too glaring, too intense
Even for those who, at first, thought they liked basking in the glory
And I remember that even the Sun, who shines unapologetically, gets too hot sometimes
And may unintentionally burn you
But she keeps on shining
And we love her for it
And we welcome the clouds and the rain and night and the winter
And when they come, we miss the Sun
And long for her return
For the pink spring sunrise
For the glowing summer sunsets
And bright autumn mornings
I wonder if the Sun misses me too when the night comes
I wonder if she feels lonely and scared too
Maybe she sees me
As much as I see her

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps and The Ghost of a Beating Heart are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Sherrie Love.

]]> Join me and Sherrie Love as we read her poem, Descension and then have a conversation about the slow, brave work of reclaiming ourselves—of getting to know who we are again after life has scattered the pieces. We talk about the struggle, the beauty, and the quiet joy of becoming whole. And we draw wisdom from the sun—how it simply shines, without apology, without hesitation, no matter who is beneath its light. What would it mean for us to live like that?

Descension

Something is shifting.
It has felt heavy and loud
in my soul for a while.
It twists in my stomach
And lurches upward
Squeezing my heart
Tighter and tighter until
I can’t breathe
Then it weaves its slimy black sludge claws
Into my mind
And plants seeds of doubt, fear, hopelessness
Until they bloom
Oozing the thick tar of my descension
What does it mean?
Where does it come from?
I thought I was through
I thought I was in the clear
Didn’t I already learn this lesson?
And I notice the giant black infection
Of fear
expanding, enveloping me
In its unrelenting grip
What am I afraid of?
Fear, what are you trying to show me?
I move toward it now
I embrace it back
Shining every shred of light I have left
Toward it
Begging it to tell me what it wants
And I see
Tiny pricks of light
Piercing through the thick, black darkness
I left my light, my energy, my joy, behind
Somewhere on the trail
Like a lost glove
Being blown away by the wind
Left to dance its way through the wilderness
Is it even still mine?
Did someone find it?
Did they pick up
And turn it over, curious who it belonged to
Did they take it home and try it on?
Did something about my essence affect them in some way?
I miss it
Why do I keep doing that?
Giving away my light?
When all I’m trying to do
Is shine on those I love
On those who need a light in their own darkness
Because I know how deeply painful and dark it is
To wander this world in the dark
Alone
Maybe I overwhelm and blind with my light because I feel so desperate to connect
Yet somehow, my light is too bright, too glaring, too intense
Even for those who, at first, thought they liked basking in the glory
And I remember that even the Sun, who shines unapologetically, gets too hot sometimes
And may unintentionally burn you
But she keeps on shining
And we love her for it
And we welcome the clouds and the rain and night and the winter
And when they come, we miss the Sun
And long for her return
For the pink spring sunrise
For the glowing summer sunsets
And bright autumn mornings
I wonder if the Sun misses me too when the night comes
I wonder if she feels lonely and scared too
Maybe she sees me
As much as I see her

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps and The Ghost of a Beating Heart are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Sherrie Love.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+3ymTIEb9 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Sherrie Love Episode 66: Magical Realism: On the Road with Jason Wheatley https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/66 67739d60-c1a3-44a1-903a-a72267736ea1 Fri, 20 Jun 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 66 Magical Realism: On the Road with Jason Wheatley full 1 Scott Edgar Some conversations only happen on the road—miles slipping by, the hum of tires, and the kind of quiet that invites reflection. In this episode, I drove with my friend Jason Wheatley to Sun Valley, Idaho, where he was delivering paintings for an upcoming art show. As we drove, we talked about his journey into art, the impulse to create, and the ways beauty can emerge from both solitude and connection. It’s a meandering, thoughtful exchange—about art, life, and the things we’re still trying to understand. After dropping off his work, we made a stop at Hemingway’s grave and memorial, a silent moment that seemed to echo the themes of the trip: legacy, voice, and what we leave behind. 2:24:27 false Some conversations only happen on the road—miles slipping by, the hum of tires, and the kind of quiet that invites reflection. In this episode, I drove with my friend Jason Wheatley to Sun Valley, Idaho, where he was delivering paintings for an upcoming art show. As we drove, we talked about his journey into art, the impulse to create, and the ways beauty can emerge from both solitude and connection.

It’s a meandering, thoughtful exchange—about art, life, and the things we’re still trying to understand. After dropping off his work, we made a stop at Hemingway’s grave and memorial, a silent moment that seemed to echo the themes of the trip: legacy, voice, and what we leave behind.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jason Wheatley.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Some conversations only happen on the road—miles slipping by, the hum of tires, and the kind of quiet that invites reflection. In this episode, I drove with my friend Jason Wheatley to Sun Valley, Idaho, where he was delivering paintings for an upcoming art show. As we drove, we talked about his journey into art, the impulse to create, and the ways beauty can emerge from both solitude and connection.

It’s a meandering, thoughtful exchange—about art, life, and the things we’re still trying to understand. After dropping off his work, we made a stop at Hemingway’s grave and memorial, a silent moment that seemed to echo the themes of the trip: legacy, voice, and what we leave behind.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jason Wheatley.

]]> Some conversations only happen on the road—miles slipping by, the hum of tires, and the kind of quiet that invites reflection. In this episode, I drove with my friend Jason Wheatley to Sun Valley, Idaho, where he was delivering paintings for an upcoming art show. As we drove, we talked about his journey into art, the impulse to create, and the ways beauty can emerge from both solitude and connection.

It’s a meandering, thoughtful exchange—about art, life, and the things we’re still trying to understand. After dropping off his work, we made a stop at Hemingway’s grave and memorial, a silent moment that seemed to echo the themes of the trip: legacy, voice, and what we leave behind.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jason Wheatley.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+58uVta4e ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jason Wheatley Episode 65: Remembering Through Music https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/65 730dc71f-93d9-4eac-a5de-dea3e536e6eb Thu, 12 Jun 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 65 Remembering Through Music full 1 Scott Edgar In this conversation, I talk with my friend Christian Jones—a local musician and songwriter who’ll be performing at Torchlight on June 21. We explore the tension between daily responsibilities and the need to stay connected to our creativity. Christian opens up about how songwriting and playing guitar have helped him navigate life, stay emotionally grounded, and build meaningful connections with others. We reflect on how creativity not only heals us, but also creates ripples that reach those around us. The episode ends with Christian sharing his moving original song, A Little Less Blue. Join us! 1:17:32 false In this conversation, I talk with my friend Christian Jones—a local musician and songwriter who’ll be performing at Torchlight on June 21. We explore the tension between daily responsibilities and the need to stay connected to our creativity. Christian opens up about how songwriting and playing guitar have helped him navigate life, stay emotionally grounded, and build meaningful connections with others. We reflect on how creativity not only heals us, but also creates ripples that reach those around us. The episode ends with Christian sharing his moving original song, A Little Less Blue

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Christian Jones.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this conversation, I talk with my friend Christian Jones—a local musician and songwriter who’ll be performing at Torchlight on June 21. We explore the tension between daily responsibilities and the need to stay connected to our creativity. Christian opens up about how songwriting and playing guitar have helped him navigate life, stay emotionally grounded, and build meaningful connections with others. We reflect on how creativity not only heals us, but also creates ripples that reach those around us. The episode ends with Christian sharing his moving original song, A Little Less Blue

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Christian Jones.

]]> In this conversation, I talk with my friend Christian Jones—a local musician and songwriter who’ll be performing at Torchlight on June 21. We explore the tension between daily responsibilities and the need to stay connected to our creativity. Christian opens up about how songwriting and playing guitar have helped him navigate life, stay emotionally grounded, and build meaningful connections with others. We reflect on how creativity not only heals us, but also creates ripples that reach those around us. The episode ends with Christian sharing his moving original song, A Little Less Blue

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Christian Jones.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+fwcrfNw_ ]]> Scott R. Edgar Christian Jones Episode 64: Rim to Rim to Rim https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/64 859dce14-41ca-48a7-985e-e4a481e35475 Thu, 29 May 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 64 Rim to Rim to Rim full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Chris Hales to unpack a journey that pushed him to the edge—physically, mentally, and emotionally. Chris took on the Grand Canyon rim to rim to rim, a grueling 50+ mile hike through one of the most unforgiving landscapes on earth. He spent months preparing, training his body and mind for the challenge ahead. But even with all the planning and readiness, nothing could fully prepare him for the brutal terrain, the heat, the exhaustion—and the moments of doubt that crept in along the way. What emerged from the struggle, though, was something far greater. Chris shares how the hardship brought him closer to the people he hiked with, including his wife, and how those shared miles—step after painful step—forged memories and connections that will last a lifetime. It’s a story of endurance, humility, and discovering the strength that comes not just from finishing, but from walking the hard road with people you love. 1:02:26 false In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Chris Hales to unpack a journey that pushed him to the edge—physically, mentally, and emotionally. Chris took on the Grand Canyon rim to rim to rim, a grueling 50+ mile hike through one of the most unforgiving landscapes on earth. He spent months preparing, training his body and mind for the challenge ahead. But even with all the planning and readiness, nothing could fully prepare him for the brutal terrain, the heat, the exhaustion—and the moments of doubt that crept in along the way.

What emerged from the struggle, though, was something far greater. Chris shares how the hardship brought him closer to the people he hiked with, including his wife, and how those shared miles—step after painful step—forged memories and connections that will last a lifetime. It’s a story of endurance, humility, and discovering the strength that comes not just from finishing, but from walking the hard road with people you love.
I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed.

You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Chris Hales.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Chris Hales to unpack a journey that pushed him to the edge—physically, mentally, and emotionally. Chris took on the Grand Canyon rim to rim to rim, a grueling 50+ mile hike through one of the most unforgiving landscapes on earth. He spent months preparing, training his body and mind for the challenge ahead. But even with all the planning and readiness, nothing could fully prepare him for the brutal terrain, the heat, the exhaustion—and the moments of doubt that crept in along the way.

What emerged from the struggle, though, was something far greater. Chris shares how the hardship brought him closer to the people he hiked with, including his wife, and how those shared miles—step after painful step—forged memories and connections that will last a lifetime. It’s a story of endurance, humility, and discovering the strength that comes not just from finishing, but from walking the hard road with people you love.
I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed.

You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Chris Hales.

]]> In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Chris Hales to unpack a journey that pushed him to the edge—physically, mentally, and emotionally. Chris took on the Grand Canyon rim to rim to rim, a grueling 50+ mile hike through one of the most unforgiving landscapes on earth. He spent months preparing, training his body and mind for the challenge ahead. But even with all the planning and readiness, nothing could fully prepare him for the brutal terrain, the heat, the exhaustion—and the moments of doubt that crept in along the way.

What emerged from the struggle, though, was something far greater. Chris shares how the hardship brought him closer to the people he hiked with, including his wife, and how those shared miles—step after painful step—forged memories and connections that will last a lifetime. It’s a story of endurance, humility, and discovering the strength that comes not just from finishing, but from walking the hard road with people you love.
I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed.

You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Chris Hales.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+XDYpFHQU ]]> Scott R. Edgar Chris Hales Episode 63: The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/63 876eb756-0fad-4369-814e-91e349f16bc5 Mon, 12 May 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 63 The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Josh Barron to talk about The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. We just begin to unpack this powerful and thought-provoking book, discussing its clear Christian themes while also exploring how its core ideas—about selfishness, humility, perspective, and human connection—transcend religious boundaries. Whether you’re deeply spiritual, loosely spiritual, or not religious at all, the principles in this book speak to how we can build better relationships, stronger communities, and more compassionate lives. It’s the beginning of a larger conversation, and we’ll be diving deeper in future episodes. 42:11 false In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Josh Barron to talk about The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. We just begin to unpack this powerful and thought-provoking book, discussing its clear Christian themes while also exploring how its core ideas—about selfishness, humility, perspective, and human connection—transcend religious boundaries. Whether you’re deeply spiritual, loosely spiritual, or not religious at all, the principles in this book speak to how we can build better relationships, stronger communities, and more compassionate lives. It’s the beginning of a larger conversation, and we’ll be diving deeper in future episodes.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Josh Barron to talk about The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. We just begin to unpack this powerful and thought-provoking book, discussing its clear Christian themes while also exploring how its core ideas—about selfishness, humility, perspective, and human connection—transcend religious boundaries. Whether you’re deeply spiritual, loosely spiritual, or not religious at all, the principles in this book speak to how we can build better relationships, stronger communities, and more compassionate lives. It’s the beginning of a larger conversation, and we’ll be diving deeper in future episodes.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Josh Barron to talk about The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. We just begin to unpack this powerful and thought-provoking book, discussing its clear Christian themes while also exploring how its core ideas—about selfishness, humility, perspective, and human connection—transcend religious boundaries. Whether you’re deeply spiritual, loosely spiritual, or not religious at all, the principles in this book speak to how we can build better relationships, stronger communities, and more compassionate lives. It’s the beginning of a larger conversation, and we’ll be diving deeper in future episodes.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+9TBeriGb ]]> Scott R. Edgar Josh Baron Episode 62: The Raft: An Allegory https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/62 a9671318-94e1-41bf-96d5-1a5275436493 Tue, 22 Apr 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 62 The Raft: An Allegory full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I read my allegory “The Raft,” which explores what it means to face fear and step beyond the limitations that keep us small. It is about becoming whole again—learning to sit with our younger selves, heal old wounds, and expand into who we truly are. This one’s about transformation, courage, and the quiet power of growth. 16:46 false In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I read my allegory “The Raft,” which explores what it means to face fear and step beyond the limitations that keep us small. It is about becoming whole again—learning to sit with our younger selves, heal old wounds, and expand into who we truly are. This one’s about transformation, courage, and the quiet power of growth.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I read my allegory “The Raft,” which explores what it means to face fear and step beyond the limitations that keep us small. It is about becoming whole again—learning to sit with our younger selves, heal old wounds, and expand into who we truly are. This one’s about transformation, courage, and the quiet power of growth.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I read my allegory “The Raft,” which explores what it means to face fear and step beyond the limitations that keep us small. It is about becoming whole again—learning to sit with our younger selves, heal old wounds, and expand into who we truly are. This one’s about transformation, courage, and the quiet power of growth.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+ltWpo4SQ ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 61: Travel https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/61 8d9daead-652a-4f94-811b-c170e24bbfab Tue, 15 Apr 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 61 Travel full 1 Scott Edgar In Episode 61 of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Howard Burkholz for a fun and thoughtful chat all about travel. Howard shares what he loves about hitting the road — from local getaways to international adventures — and how those experiences have brought him joy, taught him new perspectives, and helped shape the way he sees the world. We also talk about how photography has become a huge part of his travels, helping him slow down and capture the moments that matter. Whether you’ve got a trip planned or you’re just daydreaming, join us for a fun conversation. 58:13 false In Episode 61 of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Howard Burkholz for a fun and thoughtful chat all about travel. Howard shares what he loves about hitting the road — from local getaways to international adventures — and how those experiences have brought him joy, taught him new perspectives, and helped shape the way he sees the world. We also talk about how photography has been a huge part of his travels, helping him slow down and capture the moments that matter. Whether you’ve got a trip planned or you’re just daydreaming, join us for a fun conversation.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Howard Burkholz.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In Episode 61 of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Howard Burkholz for a fun and thoughtful chat all about travel. Howard shares what he loves about hitting the road — from local getaways to international adventures — and how those experiences have brought him joy, taught him new perspectives, and helped shape the way he sees the world. We also talk about how photography has been a huge part of his travels, helping him slow down and capture the moments that matter. Whether you’ve got a trip planned or you’re just daydreaming, join us for a fun conversation.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Howard Burkholz.

]]> In Episode 61 of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Howard Burkholz for a fun and thoughtful chat all about travel. Howard shares what he loves about hitting the road — from local getaways to international adventures — and how those experiences have brought him joy, taught him new perspectives, and helped shape the way he sees the world. We also talk about how photography has been a huge part of his travels, helping him slow down and capture the moments that matter. Whether you’ve got a trip planned or you’re just daydreaming, join us for a fun conversation.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, The Ghost of a Beating Heart and Haiku Village are availabe for purchase at

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Howard Burkholz.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+_G0Ga9Un ]]> Scott R. Edgar Howard Burkholz Episode 60: Torchlight https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/60 e7b1afbb-459e-4ad4-ab54-64245ebef9d5 Tue, 08 Apr 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 60 Torchlight full 1 Scott Edgar In this heartfelt episode, I sit down with Ali Talbot to explore the healing power of creativity and the importance of sharing our creative work with others. We talk about how the art we make to heal ourselves can also resonate with and support those around us—reminding us that creation is not only personal but deeply communal. We also introduce Torchlight, a new monthly program we’ve launched to bring people together through art, music, and poetry. Each month, we invite local artists, musicians, and writers to share their work, with occasional open mic nights to encourage participation from the community. It’s all about connection, creativity, and creating space for shared expression. Tune in for a conversation about why what we make matters—and how it can light the way for others. 55:45 false In this heartfelt episode, I sit down with Ali Talbot to explore the healing power of creativity and the importance of sharing our creative work with others. We talk about how the art we make to heal ourselves can also resonate with and support those around us—reminding us that creation is not only personal but deeply communal.

We also introduce Torchlight, a new monthly program we’ve launched to bring people together through art, music, and poetry. Each month, we invite local artists, musicians, and writers to share their work, with occasional open mic nights to encourage participation from the community. It’s all about connection, creativity, and creating space for shared expression.

Tune in for a conversation about why what we make matters—and how it can light the way for others.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ali Talbot.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this heartfelt episode, I sit down with Ali Talbot to explore the healing power of creativity and the importance of sharing our creative work with others. We talk about how the art we make to heal ourselves can also resonate with and support those around us—reminding us that creation is not only personal but deeply communal.

We also introduce Torchlight, a new monthly program we’ve launched to bring people together through art, music, and poetry. Each month, we invite local artists, musicians, and writers to share their work, with occasional open mic nights to encourage participation from the community. It’s all about connection, creativity, and creating space for shared expression.

Tune in for a conversation about why what we make matters—and how it can light the way for others.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ali Talbot.

]]> In this heartfelt episode, I sit down with Ali Talbot to explore the healing power of creativity and the importance of sharing our creative work with others. We talk about how the art we make to heal ourselves can also resonate with and support those around us—reminding us that creation is not only personal but deeply communal.

We also introduce Torchlight, a new monthly program we’ve launched to bring people together through art, music, and poetry. Each month, we invite local artists, musicians, and writers to share their work, with occasional open mic nights to encourage participation from the community. It’s all about connection, creativity, and creating space for shared expression.

Tune in for a conversation about why what we make matters—and how it can light the way for others.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ali Talbot.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+i9ITRTSm ]]> Scott R. Edgar Ali Talbot Episode 59: “To Satch” by Samuel Washington Allen https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/59 f4ffbf1d-d4b6-4541-8474-cb73cd0d1007 Wed, 26 Mar 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 59 “To Satch” by Samuel Washington Allen full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I’m joined again by my friend Tim Robison as we read and reflect on the poem “To Satch” by Samuel Washington Allen. What follows is an honest, free-flowing conversation about living with intention, making your own decisions, and figuring out what really matters. We touch on work-life balance, the search for joy, and doing the things you love — even when it’s hard. We also wrestle with questions around success and failure: What does it mean to lose? What does it mean to win? Is one better than the other? And who gets to decide? This episode is about choosing a meaningful life — and the courage it takes to do so. 1:27:29 false In this episode, I’m joined again by my friend Tim Robison as we read and reflect on the poem “To Satch” by Samuel Washington Allen. What follows is an honest, free-flowing conversation about living with intention, making your own decisions, and figuring out what really matters. We touch on work-life balance, the search for joy, and doing the things you love — even when it’s hard. We also wrestle with questions around success and failure: What does it mean to lose? What does it mean to win? Is one better than the other? And who gets to decide?

This episode is about choosing a meaningful life — and the courage it takes to do so.

To Satch

Sometimes I feel like I will never stop
Just go on forever
Till one fine mornin
I'm gonna reach up and grab me a handfulla stars
Swing out my long lean leg
And whip three hot strikes burnin down the heavens
And look over a God and say
How about that!!!!

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Tim Robison.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode, I’m joined again by my friend Tim Robison as we read and reflect on the poem “To Satch” by Samuel Washington Allen. What follows is an honest, free-flowing conversation about living with intention, making your own decisions, and figuring out what really matters. We touch on work-life balance, the search for joy, and doing the things you love — even when it’s hard. We also wrestle with questions around success and failure: What does it mean to lose? What does it mean to win? Is one better than the other? And who gets to decide?

This episode is about choosing a meaningful life — and the courage it takes to do so.

To Satch

Sometimes I feel like I will never stop
Just go on forever
Till one fine mornin
I'm gonna reach up and grab me a handfulla stars
Swing out my long lean leg
And whip three hot strikes burnin down the heavens
And look over a God and say
How about that!!!!

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Tim Robison.

]]> In this episode, I’m joined again by my friend Tim Robison as we read and reflect on the poem “To Satch” by Samuel Washington Allen. What follows is an honest, free-flowing conversation about living with intention, making your own decisions, and figuring out what really matters. We touch on work-life balance, the search for joy, and doing the things you love — even when it’s hard. We also wrestle with questions around success and failure: What does it mean to lose? What does it mean to win? Is one better than the other? And who gets to decide?

This episode is about choosing a meaningful life — and the courage it takes to do so.

To Satch

Sometimes I feel like I will never stop
Just go on forever
Till one fine mornin
I'm gonna reach up and grab me a handfulla stars
Swing out my long lean leg
And whip three hot strikes burnin down the heavens
And look over a God and say
How about that!!!!

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Tim Robison.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+TmFxKTZL ]]> Scott R. Edgar Tim Robison Episode 58: Moab https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/58 6ae30708-53cc-4766-80e9-5ae5cf0015fb Tue, 18 Mar 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 58 Moab full 1 Scott Edgar This episode of The Poet (delayed) is raw, real, and completely impromptu. No scripts, no pretense—just an honest conversation with four 20/21 years olds (Ian Edgar, Ryan Murphy, Conner Evans and Max Jones) and me about what makes us human. We all carry wounds, scars, and shadows, and instead of hiding them, what if we embraced them? What if our imperfections and life experiences are actually what make us wonderful, relatable, and deeply connected to one another? Join us as we explore how self-acceptance leads to true happiness and how recognizing our own freedom—freedom to choose, to grow, to be—can transform the way we move through the world. This is a conversation about finding beauty in our brokenness and power in our choices. MOAB This land, wounded and scarred and full of shadows, She turns his head to Her To see and he sees Her stillness and Her beauty And he understands What can be. #ThePoetDelayed #EmbraceYourScars #FindYourFreedom 2:01:49 false This episode of The Poet (delayed) is raw, real, and completely impromptu. No scripts, no pretense—just an honest conversation with four 20/21 years olds (Ian Edgar, Ryan Murphy, Conner Evans and Max Jones) and me about what makes us human. We all carry wounds, scars, and shadows, and instead of hiding them, what if we embraced them? What if our imperfections and life experiences are actually what make us wonderful, relatable, and deeply connected to one another?

Join us as we explore how self-acceptance leads to true happiness and how recognizing our own freedom—freedom to choose, to grow, to be—can transform the way we move through the world. This is a conversation about finding beauty in our brokenness and power in our choices.

MOAB
This land,
wounded and
scarred and
full of shadows,
She turns his head to Her
To see
and he sees
Her stillness and Her beauty
And he understands
What can be.

ThePoetDelayed #EmbraceYourScars #FindYourFreedom

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Conner Evans, Ian Edgar, Max Jones, and Ryan Murphy.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity This episode of The Poet (delayed) is raw, real, and completely impromptu. No scripts, no pretense—just an honest conversation with four 20/21 years olds (Ian Edgar, Ryan Murphy, Conner Evans and Max Jones) and me about what makes us human. We all carry wounds, scars, and shadows, and instead of hiding them, what if we embraced them? What if our imperfections and life experiences are actually what make us wonderful, relatable, and deeply connected to one another?

Join us as we explore how self-acceptance leads to true happiness and how recognizing our own freedom—freedom to choose, to grow, to be—can transform the way we move through the world. This is a conversation about finding beauty in our brokenness and power in our choices.

MOAB
This land,
wounded and
scarred and
full of shadows,
She turns his head to Her
To see
and he sees
Her stillness and Her beauty
And he understands
What can be.

ThePoetDelayed #EmbraceYourScars #FindYourFreedom

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Conner Evans, Ian Edgar, Max Jones, and Ryan Murphy.

]]> This episode of The Poet (delayed) is raw, real, and completely impromptu. No scripts, no pretense—just an honest conversation with four 20/21 years olds (Ian Edgar, Ryan Murphy, Conner Evans and Max Jones) and me about what makes us human. We all carry wounds, scars, and shadows, and instead of hiding them, what if we embraced them? What if our imperfections and life experiences are actually what make us wonderful, relatable, and deeply connected to one another?

Join us as we explore how self-acceptance leads to true happiness and how recognizing our own freedom—freedom to choose, to grow, to be—can transform the way we move through the world. This is a conversation about finding beauty in our brokenness and power in our choices.

MOAB
This land,
wounded and
scarred and
full of shadows,
She turns his head to Her
To see
and he sees
Her stillness and Her beauty
And he understands
What can be.

ThePoetDelayed #EmbraceYourScars #FindYourFreedom

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Conner Evans, Ian Edgar, Max Jones, and Ryan Murphy.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+sOgmeGDE ]]> Scott R. Edgar Conner Evans Ian Edgar Max Jones Ryan Murphy Episode 57: The Great Gatsby https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/57 6f050cc0-afc3-456c-b1b2-5d9a58b5c942 Tue, 11 Mar 2025 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 57 The Great Gatsby full 1 Scott Edgar On this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Jen Adams, a children’s book author, to talk about her newest project—a board book adaptation of The Great Gatsby, coming out on March 11th. We discuss the classic novel itself, how our understanding of literature shifts over time, and the powerful role books play in shaping our lives. It’s a conversation about storytelling, nostalgia, and the lasting impact of great literature. 1:02:37 false On this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Jen Adams, a children’s book author, to talk about her newest project—a board book adaptation of The Great Gatsby, coming out on March 11th. We discuss the classic novel itself, how our understanding of literature shifts over time, and the powerful role books play in shaping our lives. It’s a conversation about storytelling, nostalgia, and the lasting impact of great literature.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity On this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Jen Adams, a children’s book author, to talk about her newest project—a board book adaptation of The Great Gatsby, coming out on March 11th. We discuss the classic novel itself, how our understanding of literature shifts over time, and the powerful role books play in shaping our lives. It’s a conversation about storytelling, nostalgia, and the lasting impact of great literature.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> On this episode of The Poet (delayed), I sit down with my friend Jen Adams, a children’s book author, to talk about her newest project—a board book adaptation of The Great Gatsby, coming out on March 11th. We discuss the classic novel itself, how our understanding of literature shifts over time, and the powerful role books play in shaping our lives. It’s a conversation about storytelling, nostalgia, and the lasting impact of great literature.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+t--HQ0yZ ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jennifer Adams Episode 56: On Friendship by Kahlil Gibran https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/56 aac93f60-c398-411c-b6d6-51c269ab248e Tue, 04 Mar 2025 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 56 On Friendship by Kahlil Gibran full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I read On Friendship by Khalil Gibran and sit down with my friend Sarah Daniels for a heartfelt conversation about what it truly means to be a friend. We explore the importance of boundaries in friendships, the value of being our own best friend, and how cultivating a strong relationship with ourselves allows us to build deeper, more meaningful connections with others. Friendship is not just about companionship—it’s about growth, healing, and becoming the best versions of ourselves. Listen in as we share insights, stories, and reflections on the role of friendship in our lives. 1:25:28 false New Episode: The Power of Friendship

In this episode, I read On Friendship by Khalil Gibran and sit down with my friend Sarah Daniels for a heartfelt conversation about what it truly means to be a friend. We explore the importance of boundaries in friendships, the value of being our own best friend, and how cultivating a strong relationship with ourselves allows us to build deeper, more meaningful connections with others. Friendship is not just about companionship—it’s about growth, healing, and becoming the best versions of ourselves.

Listen in as we share insights, stories, and reflections on the role of friendship in our lives.

And a youth said, Speak to us of Friendship.
And he answered, saying:
Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace
    When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the “nay” in your own mind, nor do you withhold the “ay.”
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.
    And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Sarah Daniels.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity New Episode: The Power of Friendship

In this episode, I read On Friendship by Khalil Gibran and sit down with my friend Sarah Daniels for a heartfelt conversation about what it truly means to be a friend. We explore the importance of boundaries in friendships, the value of being our own best friend, and how cultivating a strong relationship with ourselves allows us to build deeper, more meaningful connections with others. Friendship is not just about companionship—it’s about growth, healing, and becoming the best versions of ourselves.

Listen in as we share insights, stories, and reflections on the role of friendship in our lives.

And a youth said, Speak to us of Friendship.
And he answered, saying:
Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace
    When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the “nay” in your own mind, nor do you withhold the “ay.”
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.
    And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Sarah Daniels.

]]> New Episode: The Power of Friendship

In this episode, I read On Friendship by Khalil Gibran and sit down with my friend Sarah Daniels for a heartfelt conversation about what it truly means to be a friend. We explore the importance of boundaries in friendships, the value of being our own best friend, and how cultivating a strong relationship with ourselves allows us to build deeper, more meaningful connections with others. Friendship is not just about companionship—it’s about growth, healing, and becoming the best versions of ourselves.

Listen in as we share insights, stories, and reflections on the role of friendship in our lives.

And a youth said, Speak to us of Friendship.
And he answered, saying:
Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace
    When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the “nay” in your own mind, nor do you withhold the “ay.”
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.
    And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Sarah Daniels.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+dv2Vy_VN ]]> Scott R. Edgar Sarah Daniels Episode 55: Foot Zoning https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/55 84876780-78ba-4879-8851-ab5504a3351d Tue, 25 Feb 2025 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 55 Foot Zoning full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, Elise Lechtenberg and I dive into the fascinating world of foot zoning—exploring its origins, the benefits of integrating it with Western medicine, and the powerful experiences we’ve both had with this practice. We also discuss the resurgence of energy work and how it’s helping people find balance and healing in new ways. Tune in for an insightful conversation on the impact of foot zoning and holistic wellness! 58:55 false In this episode, Elise Lechtenberg and I dive into the fascinating world of foot zoning—exploring its origins, the benefits of integrating it with Western medicine, and the powerful experiences we’ve both had with this practice. We also discuss the resurgence of energy work and how it’s helping people find balance and healing in new ways. Tune in for an insightful conversation on the impact of foot zoning and holistic wellness!

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Elise Lechtenberg.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode, Elise Lechtenberg and I dive into the fascinating world of foot zoning—exploring its origins, the benefits of integrating it with Western medicine, and the powerful experiences we’ve both had with this practice. We also discuss the resurgence of energy work and how it’s helping people find balance and healing in new ways. Tune in for an insightful conversation on the impact of foot zoning and holistic wellness!

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Elise Lechtenberg.

]]> In this episode, Elise Lechtenberg and I dive into the fascinating world of foot zoning—exploring its origins, the benefits of integrating it with Western medicine, and the powerful experiences we’ve both had with this practice. We also discuss the resurgence of energy work and how it’s helping people find balance and healing in new ways. Tune in for an insightful conversation on the impact of foot zoning and holistic wellness!

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Elise Lechtenberg.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+rRKqJrIv ]]> Scott R. Edgar Elise Lechtenberg Episode 54: Everything You Need: Danny D on His Past Work, Reading Books, Making Music Videos and Average Behavior https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/54 6f2c8fb7-f0fb-4b03-a7d7-9fe58e0df6fc Tue, 18 Feb 2025 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 54 Everything You Need: Danny D on His Past Work, Reading Books, Making Music Videos and Average Behavior full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I sit down with music video and documentary director Danny Drysdale. We talk about his journey in filmmaking, including his work with The Killers and directing multiple music videos for them, and how he’s continued to push forward in an unpredictable industry. We discuss what it takes to achieve goals, the uncertainty that comes with creative work, and the importance of moving forward even when we don’t have all the answers. 1:41:56 true In this episode, I sit down with music video and documentary director Danny Drysdale. We talk about his journey in filmmaking, including his work with The Killers and directing multiple music videos for them, and how he’s continued to push forward in an unpredictable industry. We discuss what it takes to achieve goals, the uncertainty that comes with creative work, and the importance of moving forward even when we don’t have all the answers.

The Mulligrubs

The Mulligrubs 2

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Danny Drysdale.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode, I sit down with music video and documentary director Danny Drysdale. We talk about his journey in filmmaking, including his work with The Killers and directing multiple music videos for them, and how he’s continued to push forward in an unpredictable industry. We discuss what it takes to achieve goals, the uncertainty that comes with creative work, and the importance of moving forward even when we don’t have all the answers.

The Mulligrubs

The Mulligrubs 2

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Danny Drysdale.

Links:

]]> In this episode, I sit down with music video and documentary director Danny Drysdale. We talk about his journey in filmmaking, including his work with The Killers and directing multiple music videos for them, and how he’s continued to push forward in an unpredictable industry. We discuss what it takes to achieve goals, the uncertainty that comes with creative work, and the importance of moving forward even when we don’t have all the answers.

The Mulligrubs

The Mulligrubs 2

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Danny Drysdale.

Links:

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+q3XVpgd4 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Danny Drysdale Episode 53: Harbors https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/53 44a61352-89ae-4d06-ae87-5350f667f360 Tue, 04 Feb 2025 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 53 Harbors full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined in this episode by Allison Spencer and Rachel Waters. Both of whom were my friends in the fifth and sixth grade at Hannah Holbrook Elementary school in Bountiful Utah. Allison was on the podcast almost exactly 2 years ago and we had a great conversation about her diagnosis and fight against Hodgkins lymphoma cancer. The other part of that story is that less than two months after Allison was diagnosed, Rachel's daughter Haley was diagnosed with the same type of cancer. In this episode, we talked about among other things what it was like to have each other to lean on and the value of friends and community in our lives, especially in dark and difficult moments. 1:06:25 false Harbors

A friend is a harbor, calm
In whom is found
A healing balm
And asks for nothing in return
Save this:
That if the tide should turn
There I’d be, ever true,
That he with me
Might harbor too.

I was joined in this episode by Allison Spencer and Rachel Waters. Both of whom were my friends in the fifth and sixth grade at Hannah Holbrook Elementary school in Bountiful Utah.

Allison was on the podcast almost exactly 2 years ago and we had a great conversation about her diagnosis and fight against Hodgkins lymphoma cancer. The other part of that story is that less than two months after Allison was diagnosed, Rachel's daughter Haley was diagnosed with the same type of cancer.

In this episode, we talked about among other things what it was like to have each other to lean on and the value of friends and community in our lives, especially in dark and difficult moments.

friendship #community #resolute #thenow #fear #anger #hodgkinslymphoma

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Allison Spencer and Rachel Waters.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Harbors

A friend is a harbor, calm
In whom is found
A healing balm
And asks for nothing in return
Save this:
That if the tide should turn
There I’d be, ever true,
That he with me
Might harbor too.

I was joined in this episode by Allison Spencer and Rachel Waters. Both of whom were my friends in the fifth and sixth grade at Hannah Holbrook Elementary school in Bountiful Utah.

Allison was on the podcast almost exactly 2 years ago and we had a great conversation about her diagnosis and fight against Hodgkins lymphoma cancer. The other part of that story is that less than two months after Allison was diagnosed, Rachel's daughter Haley was diagnosed with the same type of cancer.

In this episode, we talked about among other things what it was like to have each other to lean on and the value of friends and community in our lives, especially in dark and difficult moments.

friendship #community #resolute #thenow #fear #anger #hodgkinslymphoma

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Allison Spencer and Rachel Waters.

]]> Harbors

A friend is a harbor, calm
In whom is found
A healing balm
And asks for nothing in return
Save this:
That if the tide should turn
There I’d be, ever true,
That he with me
Might harbor too.

I was joined in this episode by Allison Spencer and Rachel Waters. Both of whom were my friends in the fifth and sixth grade at Hannah Holbrook Elementary school in Bountiful Utah.

Allison was on the podcast almost exactly 2 years ago and we had a great conversation about her diagnosis and fight against Hodgkins lymphoma cancer. The other part of that story is that less than two months after Allison was diagnosed, Rachel's daughter Haley was diagnosed with the same type of cancer.

In this episode, we talked about among other things what it was like to have each other to lean on and the value of friends and community in our lives, especially in dark and difficult moments.

friendship #community #resolute #thenow #fear #anger #hodgkinslymphoma

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My books of poetry are availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Allison Spencer and Rachel Waters.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+xvaXG5Vr ]]> Scott R. Edgar Allison Spencer Rachel Waters Episode 52: Sharing My Sky https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/52 e392b08c-b558-48f0-946a-f8c3bef8ccce Tue, 28 Jan 2025 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 52 Sharing My Sky full 1 Scott Edgar Join me and Mike as we read my poem, Sharing My Sky, and discuss how we’ve benefited from hiking and being out in nature, including our swimming in the Silfa Fissure in Iceland in 2018. 1:33:45 false SHARING MY SKY

If you ever have some time
Stop by for a bit.
I've got a beautiful sky
And no one to share it with.
It's really nothing much,
Just a moon and some friendly stars,
But what is mine,
I'll make ours.
So, if you've got some time,
Just stop by
The gate is always open
And I've saved you a spot
Right next to me
On the soft and welcoming grass.
We'll have a breath of cool fresh air
And sit and share
My sky together.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Mike Sessions.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity SHARING MY SKY

If you ever have some time
Stop by for a bit.
I've got a beautiful sky
And no one to share it with.
It's really nothing much,
Just a moon and some friendly stars,
But what is mine,
I'll make ours.
So, if you've got some time,
Just stop by
The gate is always open
And I've saved you a spot
Right next to me
On the soft and welcoming grass.
We'll have a breath of cool fresh air
And sit and share
My sky together.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Mike Sessions.

]]> SHARING MY SKY

If you ever have some time
Stop by for a bit.
I've got a beautiful sky
And no one to share it with.
It's really nothing much,
Just a moon and some friendly stars,
But what is mine,
I'll make ours.
So, if you've got some time,
Just stop by
The gate is always open
And I've saved you a spot
Right next to me
On the soft and welcoming grass.
We'll have a breath of cool fresh air
And sit and share
My sky together.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Mike Sessions.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+phMgV9kn ]]> Scott R. Edgar Mike Sessions Episode 51: The Old Man and the Sea https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/51 52abe5a6-6276-4db5-8e3d-174bfedd7d6a Wed, 27 Nov 2024 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 51 The Old Man and the Sea full 1 Scott Edgar Last episode, I discussed a passage from The Old Man and the Sea. This week I’m joined again by Josh Baron as we discuss the book itself. 1:24:22 false Last episode, I discussed a passage from The Old Man and the Sea. This week I’m joined again by Josh Baron as we discuss the book itself.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Last episode, I discussed a passage from The Old Man and the Sea. This week I’m joined again by Josh Baron as we discuss the book itself.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> Last episode, I discussed a passage from The Old Man and the Sea. This week I’m joined again by Josh Baron as we discuss the book itself.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+4hYg_83V ]]> Scott R. Edgar Josh Baron Episode 50: “Took His Suffering as It Came” https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/50 154afc8e-7234-4e05-b00d-c4f7d6b152d4 Tue, 19 Nov 2024 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 50 “Took His Suffering as It Came” full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I read an excerpt from Hemingway’s The Old Man and the Sea: “He settled comfortably against the wood and took his suffering as it came and the fish swam steadily and the boat moved slowly through the dark water.” Then I shared some thoughts and asked some questions about suffering and how it shows up in our lives and what we do with it. 52:51 false In this episode, I read an excerpt from Hemingway’s The Old Man and the Sea:

“He settled comfortably against the wood and took his suffering as it came and the fish swam steadily and the boat moved slowly through the dark water.”

Then I shared some thoughts and asked some questions about suffering and how it shows up in our lives and what we do with it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode, I read an excerpt from Hemingway’s The Old Man and the Sea:

“He settled comfortably against the wood and took his suffering as it came and the fish swam steadily and the boat moved slowly through the dark water.”

Then I shared some thoughts and asked some questions about suffering and how it shows up in our lives and what we do with it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> In this episode, I read an excerpt from Hemingway’s The Old Man and the Sea:

“He settled comfortably against the wood and took his suffering as it came and the fish swam steadily and the boat moved slowly through the dark water.”

Then I shared some thoughts and asked some questions about suffering and how it shows up in our lives and what we do with it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+vvilLmcS ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 49: A Man for All Seasons https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/49 94175898-6a49-4307-833a-d1fa243455df Tue, 17 Sep 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 49 A Man for All Seasons full 1 Scott Edgar In episode 49, was joined by my friends Josh Baron and Tim Robison. We discussed the play “A Man for All Seasons” which deals with Thomas More’s dilemma related to King Henry’s divorce from Catherine of Aragon and everything that that entailed. 1:48:43 false In episode 49, was joined by my friends Josh Baron and Tim Robison. We discussed the play “A Man for All Seasons” which deals with Thomas More’s dilemma related to King Henry’s divorce from Catherine of Aragon and everything that that entailed.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Josh Baron and Tim Robison.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In episode 49, was joined by my friends Josh Baron and Tim Robison. We discussed the play “A Man for All Seasons” which deals with Thomas More’s dilemma related to King Henry’s divorce from Catherine of Aragon and everything that that entailed.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Josh Baron and Tim Robison.

]]> In episode 49, was joined by my friends Josh Baron and Tim Robison. We discussed the play “A Man for All Seasons” which deals with Thomas More’s dilemma related to King Henry’s divorce from Catherine of Aragon and everything that that entailed.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guests: Josh Baron and Tim Robison.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+gXU2fa_E ]]> Scott R. Edgar Josh Baron Tim Robison Episode 48: Brain Food Books https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/48 c582c042-a1b5-4169-89b7-875e024ad508 Tue, 10 Sep 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 48 Brain Food Books full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined by Cal Crosby, owner of the King’s English Bookshop in Salt Lake City, Utah, as well as Brain Food Books, which is a 501(c)(3) non-profit dedicated to putting books in the hands of those without regular access. We also discussed what it’s like to run a local independent bookshop and the roll it, as well as all locally owned businesses, play in the community. 1:01:38 false I was joined by Cal Crosby, owner of the King’s English Bookshop in Salt Lake City, Utah, as well as Brain Food Books, which is a 501(c)(3) non-profit dedicated to putting books in the hands of those without regular access. We also discussed what it’s like to run a local independent bookshop and the roll it, as well as all locally owned businesses, play in the community.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Cal Crosby.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I was joined by Cal Crosby, owner of the King’s English Bookshop in Salt Lake City, Utah, as well as Brain Food Books, which is a 501(c)(3) non-profit dedicated to putting books in the hands of those without regular access. We also discussed what it’s like to run a local independent bookshop and the roll it, as well as all locally owned businesses, play in the community.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Cal Crosby.

Links:

]]> I was joined by Cal Crosby, owner of the King’s English Bookshop in Salt Lake City, Utah, as well as Brain Food Books, which is a 501(c)(3) non-profit dedicated to putting books in the hands of those without regular access. We also discussed what it’s like to run a local independent bookshop and the roll it, as well as all locally owned businesses, play in the community.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Cal Crosby.

Links:

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+tfVEwknA ]]> Scott R. Edgar Cal Crosby Episode 47: Injustice https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/47 5e880734-082d-464d-a879-a47f2f4d9e67 Tue, 03 Sep 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 47 Injustice full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined by my friend, Melissa Fairbourn Peterson. We talked about the wounds we all suffer from one another whether intentionally or not and that those who inflict those wounds cannot heal us - only we can heal our wounds. We discussed the importance of apologies in the healing process. The dangers in demanding an apology. How recognizing our complicity in our wounds helps us heal, and so much more. We read from Les Miserables and from The Gulag Archipelago. 1:17:48 false Injustice

I’ll speak of Injustice:

She had the strength to harm him.
To strike the blow, to score the wound
But not to bind it up.

She cannot heal him.
She has no salve strong enough.

I was joined by my friend, Melissa Fairbourn Peterson. We talked about the wounds we all suffer from one another whether intentionally or not and that those who inflict those wounds cannot heal us - only we can heal our wounds.
We discussed the importance of apologies in the healing process. The dangers in demanding an apology. How recognizing our complicity in our wounds helps us heal, and so much more.

We read from Les Miserables and from The Gulag Archipelago.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Melissa Peterson.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Injustice

I’ll speak of Injustice:

She had the strength to harm him.
To strike the blow, to score the wound
But not to bind it up.

She cannot heal him.
She has no salve strong enough.

I was joined by my friend, Melissa Fairbourn Peterson. We talked about the wounds we all suffer from one another whether intentionally or not and that those who inflict those wounds cannot heal us - only we can heal our wounds.
We discussed the importance of apologies in the healing process. The dangers in demanding an apology. How recognizing our complicity in our wounds helps us heal, and so much more.

We read from Les Miserables and from The Gulag Archipelago.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Melissa Peterson.

]]> Injustice

I’ll speak of Injustice:

She had the strength to harm him.
To strike the blow, to score the wound
But not to bind it up.

She cannot heal him.
She has no salve strong enough.

I was joined by my friend, Melissa Fairbourn Peterson. We talked about the wounds we all suffer from one another whether intentionally or not and that those who inflict those wounds cannot heal us - only we can heal our wounds.
We discussed the importance of apologies in the healing process. The dangers in demanding an apology. How recognizing our complicity in our wounds helps us heal, and so much more.

We read from Les Miserables and from The Gulag Archipelago.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Melissa Peterson.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+sXfZPvGR ]]> Scott R. Edgar Melissa Peterson Episode 46: Walk Unafraid by First Aid Kit https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/46 0a33930e-b2e4-4cd7-8c1c-39c105596689 Tue, 27 Aug 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 46 Walk Unafraid by First Aid Kit full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined by Lindsey McDermott this week and we listened to “Walk Unafraid” by First Aid Kit and discussed belonging to yourself and not abandoning yourself to fit in. We also talked about joy and sorrow and happiness and suffering and how they have presented in our lives and ways that we have engaged with them. 1:44:24 false I was joined by Lindsey McDermott this week and we listened to “Walk Unafraid” by First Aid Kit and discussed belonging to yourself and not abandoning yourself to fit in. We also talked about joy and sorrow and happiness and suffering and how they have presented in our lives and ways that we have engaged with them.

Click here to listen to Walk Unafraid by First Aid Kit

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Lindsey McDermott.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I was joined by Lindsey McDermott this week and we listened to “Walk Unafraid” by First Aid Kit and discussed belonging to yourself and not abandoning yourself to fit in. We also talked about joy and sorrow and happiness and suffering and how they have presented in our lives and ways that we have engaged with them.

Click here to listen to Walk Unafraid by First Aid Kit

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Lindsey McDermott.

Links:

]]> I was joined by Lindsey McDermott this week and we listened to “Walk Unafraid” by First Aid Kit and discussed belonging to yourself and not abandoning yourself to fit in. We also talked about joy and sorrow and happiness and suffering and how they have presented in our lives and ways that we have engaged with them.

Click here to listen to Walk Unafraid by First Aid Kit

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Lindsey McDermott.

Links:

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+xokJ8XRg ]]> Scott R. Edgar Lindsey McDermott Episode 45: The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/45 5393097f-1010-4f01-8cf4-380631ceba25 Tue, 20 Aug 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 45 The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined by my good friend Pat. We read and discussed The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski. We talked about what it means to us to be clubbed into dank submission. How does that come about? How do we overcome it? Why is it important to overcome it? 1:44:38 false I’m joined by my good friend Pat. We read and discussed The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski. We talked about what it means to us to be clubbed into dank submission. How does that come about? How do we overcome it? Why is it important to overcome it?

Tune in on August 20th!

The Laughing Heart
By Charles Bukowski

your life is your life
don't let it be clubbed into dank submission.
be on the watch.
there are ways out.
there is a light somewhere.
it may not be much light but
it beats the darkness.
be on the watch.
the gods will offer you chances.
know them.
take them.
you can't beat death but
you can beat death in life, sometimes.
and the more often you learn to do it,
the more light there will be.
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
in you.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Patrick.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I’m joined by my good friend Pat. We read and discussed The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski. We talked about what it means to us to be clubbed into dank submission. How does that come about? How do we overcome it? Why is it important to overcome it?

Tune in on August 20th!

The Laughing Heart
By Charles Bukowski

your life is your life
don't let it be clubbed into dank submission.
be on the watch.
there are ways out.
there is a light somewhere.
it may not be much light but
it beats the darkness.
be on the watch.
the gods will offer you chances.
know them.
take them.
you can't beat death but
you can beat death in life, sometimes.
and the more often you learn to do it,
the more light there will be.
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
in you.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Patrick.

]]> I’m joined by my good friend Pat. We read and discussed The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski. We talked about what it means to us to be clubbed into dank submission. How does that come about? How do we overcome it? Why is it important to overcome it?

Tune in on August 20th!

The Laughing Heart
By Charles Bukowski

your life is your life
don't let it be clubbed into dank submission.
be on the watch.
there are ways out.
there is a light somewhere.
it may not be much light but
it beats the darkness.
be on the watch.
the gods will offer you chances.
know them.
take them.
you can't beat death but
you can beat death in life, sometimes.
and the more often you learn to do it,
the more light there will be.
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
in you.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Patrick.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+Ij5ywk8b ]]> Scott R. Edgar Patrick Episode 44: Sinking https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/44 4e7ba879-cdd6-43c4-b32a-63877e46502f Tue, 13 Aug 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 44 Sinking full 1 Scott Edgar Josh Baron joined me again and we discussed his song, Sinking, that he just published on Spotify. We discussed his process and the inspiration for the song. We also talked about creativity and the important role it plays in our personal lives and in the world. 1:00:08 false Spotify link to Josh's song, Sinking

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Spotify link to Josh's song, Sinking

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

Links:

]]> Spotify link to Josh's song, Sinking

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

Links:

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+S9JaDhQS ]]> Scott R. Edgar Josh Baron Episode 43: Motherless Pieta https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/43 bb332a28-7880-4daa-b47f-070ed1385968 Tue, 06 Aug 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 43 Motherless Pieta full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I’m joined again by Josh Baron as we discuss my poem, Motherless Pieta, the Parable of the Prodigal Son, obedience, self abandonment and more. 1:10:23 false MOTHERLESS PIETA

Behind the curtain
The cottonmouths speak
Sending their words through the air:

Sacrifice and self-laceration
(bloodless)
Lift the hands that hang down
And succor and suffer

  • Then heaven waits.

He listens with prejudice and certainty
But his hands hang lowest
Of all the hanging hands.

“My hands will be lifted,” he says,
“as I lift others.
So move on – let me be.
I have work to do.”
And his low hands
Raise stones to his
Single-eyed altar.

Then he lays himself down –
Body draped over the altar stones
(a Motherless Pieta)
Self-sacrificed, savior to none
But heaven waits, they say.

In this episode, I’m joined again by Josh Baron as we discuss my poem, Motherless Pieta, the Parable of the Prodigal Son, obedience, self abandonment and more.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity MOTHERLESS PIETA

Behind the curtain
The cottonmouths speak
Sending their words through the air:

Sacrifice and self-laceration
(bloodless)
Lift the hands that hang down
And succor and suffer

  • Then heaven waits.

He listens with prejudice and certainty
But his hands hang lowest
Of all the hanging hands.

“My hands will be lifted,” he says,
“as I lift others.
So move on – let me be.
I have work to do.”
And his low hands
Raise stones to his
Single-eyed altar.

Then he lays himself down –
Body draped over the altar stones
(a Motherless Pieta)
Self-sacrificed, savior to none
But heaven waits, they say.

In this episode, I’m joined again by Josh Baron as we discuss my poem, Motherless Pieta, the Parable of the Prodigal Son, obedience, self abandonment and more.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> MOTHERLESS PIETA

Behind the curtain
The cottonmouths speak
Sending their words through the air:

Sacrifice and self-laceration
(bloodless)
Lift the hands that hang down
And succor and suffer

  • Then heaven waits.

He listens with prejudice and certainty
But his hands hang lowest
Of all the hanging hands.

“My hands will be lifted,” he says,
“as I lift others.
So move on – let me be.
I have work to do.”
And his low hands
Raise stones to his
Single-eyed altar.

Then he lays himself down –
Body draped over the altar stones
(a Motherless Pieta)
Self-sacrificed, savior to none
But heaven waits, they say.

In this episode, I’m joined again by Josh Baron as we discuss my poem, Motherless Pieta, the Parable of the Prodigal Son, obedience, self abandonment and more.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+4aFa4pK0 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Josh Baron Episode 42: In My Marrow https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/42 bc8cce57-eae1-42d3-b6fe-dd8949229066 Thu, 01 Aug 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 42 In My Marrow full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I read my poem, “In My Marrow,” and discussed the principle of belonging to ourselves and the importance of knowing who we are what are values are. In doing so, I drew upon the wisdom of Maya Angelou, Brene Brown, Solzhenitsyn, Nietzsche and Jung. 1:00:58 false The Poet (delayed)
Ep. 42: In My Marrow
Available: August 1, 2024

In My Marrow

I am drenched in freedom -
Soaked to the bone.

  • Even more, it’s in my marrow. I brought it from the womb And will take it to the dust. Place chains on my wrists, yet I am free; Make my walls into iron bars, yet I am free For my mind is unchainable and My heart uncageable. Abdication is my only threat.

I’m Socrates free
I’m William Wallace free.
I’m Solomon Northrup free.
I’m Viktor Frankl free.
I am Human; I am Free

  • It’s in my marrow. _____________________________________ In this episode, I read my poem, “In My Marrow,” and discussed the principle of belonging to ourselves and the importance of knowing who we are what are values are. In doing so, I drew upon the wisdom of Maya Angelou, Brene Brown, Solzhenitsyn, Nietzsche and Jung.I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed.
    _____________________________________ You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity The Poet (delayed)
Ep. 42: In My Marrow
Available: August 1, 2024

In My Marrow

I am drenched in freedom -
Soaked to the bone.

  • Even more, it’s in my marrow. I brought it from the womb And will take it to the dust. Place chains on my wrists, yet I am free; Make my walls into iron bars, yet I am free For my mind is unchainable and My heart uncageable. Abdication is my only threat.

I’m Socrates free
I’m William Wallace free.
I’m Solomon Northrup free.
I’m Viktor Frankl free.
I am Human; I am Free

  • It’s in my marrow. _____________________________________ In this episode, I read my poem, “In My Marrow,” and discussed the principle of belonging to ourselves and the importance of knowing who we are what are values are. In doing so, I drew upon the wisdom of Maya Angelou, Brene Brown, Solzhenitsyn, Nietzsche and Jung.I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed.
    _____________________________________ You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> The Poet (delayed)
Ep. 42: In My Marrow
Available: August 1, 2024

In My Marrow

I am drenched in freedom -
Soaked to the bone.

  • Even more, it’s in my marrow. I brought it from the womb And will take it to the dust. Place chains on my wrists, yet I am free; Make my walls into iron bars, yet I am free For my mind is unchainable and My heart uncageable. Abdication is my only threat.

I’m Socrates free
I’m William Wallace free.
I’m Solomon Northrup free.
I’m Viktor Frankl free.
I am Human; I am Free

  • It’s in my marrow. _____________________________________ In this episode, I read my poem, “In My Marrow,” and discussed the principle of belonging to ourselves and the importance of knowing who we are what are values are. In doing so, I drew upon the wisdom of Maya Angelou, Brene Brown, Solzhenitsyn, Nietzsche and Jung.I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed.
    _____________________________________ You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+Krk0HdFx ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 41: The Iliad by Babylit https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/41 ba242dab-9989-4a59-b817-f988ab212c20 Tue, 30 Jul 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 41 The Iliad by Babylit full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I was joined again by Jennifer Adams. We discussed her newest addition to her Babylit book series, The Iliad. We also discussed other projects that she is working on and the power of literature. 58:51 false In this episode, I was joined again by Jennifer Adams. We discussed her newest addition to her Babylit book series, The Iliad.

We also discussed other projects that she is working on and the power of literature.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode, I was joined again by Jennifer Adams. We discussed her newest addition to her Babylit book series, The Iliad.

We also discussed other projects that she is working on and the power of literature.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> In this episode, I was joined again by Jennifer Adams. We discussed her newest addition to her Babylit book series, The Iliad.

We also discussed other projects that she is working on and the power of literature.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+Hrs8K0bQ ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jennifer Adams Episode 40: The Torchlight of Rescuers… https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/40 356a33b0-35b7-445f-b8d8-0a02aa8268d3 Tue, 16 Jul 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 40 The Torchlight of Rescuers… full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I was joined by Zach Wheatley. He is a friend, the son of a friend and the nephew of a friend…all at the same time. He works as a Teen Center Coordinator in the newly established Teen Center Program at Viewmont High School which provides him an opportunity to support students who are lacking basic needs. Zach and I discussed his work at the Teen Center in light of a couple of my poems, “Dark Canopy” and “Moab.” 1:32:24 false In this episode, I was joined by Zach Wheatley. He is a friend, the son of a friend and the nephew of a friend…all at the same time. Zach just started his M.Ed program in school counseling at Utah Valley University. He also coaches football and lacrosse at Viewmont High School in Bountiful, Utah. And on top of all of that, he works as a Teen Center Coordinator in the newly established Teen Center Program at Viewmont High School which provides him an opportunity to support students who are lacking basic needs.

On it’s website, www.daviseducationfoundation.org, the Teen Center Program is described as

a supportive facility within a high school that provides resources and assistance to help students overcome barriers to learning. Teen Centers offer a space where students can access basic necessities, academic support and guidance, that help them thrive in both their academic and personal lives.

Zach and I discussed his work at the Teen Center in light of a couple of my poems, “Dark Canopy” and “Moab”:

DARK CANOPY

Hopelessness covers me:
Like a forest canopy
On a moonless night
It covers me.
I see no way or path
To deliver myself.
And the darkness:
It fills my eyes.
And they are unable to see
The torchlight
Of rescuers who may approach.
All is black and dead.
Every gleam is only a phantom.
And the only variations in light
Are darker shadows
Waiting to finish me off
For good.

MOAB

This land,
wounded and scarred and full of shadows,
She turns his face to Her
To see
and he sees
Her stillness and Her beauty
And he understands
What can be.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Zach Wheatley.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In this episode, I was joined by Zach Wheatley. He is a friend, the son of a friend and the nephew of a friend…all at the same time. Zach just started his M.Ed program in school counseling at Utah Valley University. He also coaches football and lacrosse at Viewmont High School in Bountiful, Utah. And on top of all of that, he works as a Teen Center Coordinator in the newly established Teen Center Program at Viewmont High School which provides him an opportunity to support students who are lacking basic needs.

On it’s website, www.daviseducationfoundation.org, the Teen Center Program is described as

a supportive facility within a high school that provides resources and assistance to help students overcome barriers to learning. Teen Centers offer a space where students can access basic necessities, academic support and guidance, that help them thrive in both their academic and personal lives.

Zach and I discussed his work at the Teen Center in light of a couple of my poems, “Dark Canopy” and “Moab”:

DARK CANOPY

Hopelessness covers me:
Like a forest canopy
On a moonless night
It covers me.
I see no way or path
To deliver myself.
And the darkness:
It fills my eyes.
And they are unable to see
The torchlight
Of rescuers who may approach.
All is black and dead.
Every gleam is only a phantom.
And the only variations in light
Are darker shadows
Waiting to finish me off
For good.

MOAB

This land,
wounded and scarred and full of shadows,
She turns his face to Her
To see
and he sees
Her stillness and Her beauty
And he understands
What can be.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Zach Wheatley.

Links:

]]> In this episode, I was joined by Zach Wheatley. He is a friend, the son of a friend and the nephew of a friend…all at the same time. Zach just started his M.Ed program in school counseling at Utah Valley University. He also coaches football and lacrosse at Viewmont High School in Bountiful, Utah. And on top of all of that, he works as a Teen Center Coordinator in the newly established Teen Center Program at Viewmont High School which provides him an opportunity to support students who are lacking basic needs.

On it’s website, www.daviseducationfoundation.org, the Teen Center Program is described as

a supportive facility within a high school that provides resources and assistance to help students overcome barriers to learning. Teen Centers offer a space where students can access basic necessities, academic support and guidance, that help them thrive in both their academic and personal lives.

Zach and I discussed his work at the Teen Center in light of a couple of my poems, “Dark Canopy” and “Moab”:

DARK CANOPY

Hopelessness covers me:
Like a forest canopy
On a moonless night
It covers me.
I see no way or path
To deliver myself.
And the darkness:
It fills my eyes.
And they are unable to see
The torchlight
Of rescuers who may approach.
All is black and dead.
Every gleam is only a phantom.
And the only variations in light
Are darker shadows
Waiting to finish me off
For good.

MOAB

This land,
wounded and scarred and full of shadows,
She turns his face to Her
To see
and he sees
Her stillness and Her beauty
And he understands
What can be.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Zach Wheatley.

Links:

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+tEdKL-26 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Zach Wheatley Episode 39: Just for today... https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/39 ec00582b-a3b5-4b8b-be67-91f1b41c8620 Tue, 09 Jul 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 39 Just for today... full 1 Scott Edgar My brother, Wil Edgar is a Reiki Master, and joined me to talk about the five precepts of Reiki. 59:50 false My brother, Wil Edgar is a Reiki Master, and joined me to talk about the five precepts of Reiki.

Just for today, do not worry
Just for today, do not anger
Honor your parents, teachers, and elders
Earn your living honestly
Show gratitude to every living thing

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Wil Edgar.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity My brother, Wil Edgar is a Reiki Master, and joined me to talk about the five precepts of Reiki.

Just for today, do not worry
Just for today, do not anger
Honor your parents, teachers, and elders
Earn your living honestly
Show gratitude to every living thing

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Wil Edgar.

]]> My brother, Wil Edgar is a Reiki Master, and joined me to talk about the five precepts of Reiki.

Just for today, do not worry
Just for today, do not anger
Honor your parents, teachers, and elders
Earn your living honestly
Show gratitude to every living thing

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Wil Edgar.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+fX-MbERx ]]> Scott R. Edgar Wil Edgar Episode 38: Shattered https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/38 5f561322-61c2-489e-9978-86efd495889a Tue, 02 Jul 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 38 Shattered full 1 Scott Edgar Lisa Cox joined me and read her poem, "Shattered." Then, through the lens of our personal experiences, we discussed what it means to shatter and how it can be the catalyst to positive transformations in our lives. We discussed why we shatter; What shattering can look like; What happens after we shatter; What we can do with the shattered pieces of us and other “shatter” related issues, including how a kaleidoscope factors into the process. 1:34:18 false Lisa Cox joined me and she read her poem titled “Shattered”

A love note for myself:
Darling,
After I have
shattered, only I choose
which pieces are worth saving. Then,
I rise.

Then, through the lens of our personal experiences, we discussed what it means to shatter and how it can be the catalyst to positive transformations in our lives. We discussed why we shatter; What shattering can look like; What happens after we shatter; What we can do with the shattered pieces of us and other “shatter” related issues, including how a kaleidoscope factors into the process.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Lisa Cox.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Lisa Cox joined me and she read her poem titled “Shattered”

A love note for myself:
Darling,
After I have
shattered, only I choose
which pieces are worth saving. Then,
I rise.

Then, through the lens of our personal experiences, we discussed what it means to shatter and how it can be the catalyst to positive transformations in our lives. We discussed why we shatter; What shattering can look like; What happens after we shatter; What we can do with the shattered pieces of us and other “shatter” related issues, including how a kaleidoscope factors into the process.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Lisa Cox.

]]> Lisa Cox joined me and she read her poem titled “Shattered”

A love note for myself:
Darling,
After I have
shattered, only I choose
which pieces are worth saving. Then,
I rise.

Then, through the lens of our personal experiences, we discussed what it means to shatter and how it can be the catalyst to positive transformations in our lives. We discussed why we shatter; What shattering can look like; What happens after we shatter; What we can do with the shattered pieces of us and other “shatter” related issues, including how a kaleidoscope factors into the process.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Lisa Cox.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+5nPYEte1 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Lisa Cox Episode 37: Don’t Worry Baby https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/37 21bef0f4-19d8-4d41-a412-590a22681ca0 Tue, 25 Jun 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 37 Don’t Worry Baby full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I use the Beach Boy’s song, Don’t Worry Baby, to discuss my observations and experiences related to vulnerability, love and safety in relationships, all types of relationships, and how that the lack of those three things contribute to an unfulfilled life. 48:55 false I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Last July, I went to The Beach Boys’ concert at Deer Valley in Park City, Utah. Near the end of the concert, they played Don’t Worry Baby. I had heard the song before and always liked it, but I had never really listened to it. As I sat in the grass and Mike Love belted the song out, I heard it for the first time and it took on a whole new meaning. What seemed like silly lyrics that were there only because the amazing harmonies needed some lyrics became much deeper to me.

I realized that in 2 minutes and 51 seconds, Brian Wilson conveyed a powerful story about vulnerability, love and safety.

I left the next morning on a solo trip to Canyonlands National Park and ended up listening to Don’t Worry Baby on repeat for 3 days. I still listen to it on repeat regularly. Neither the music or the meaning ever gets old.

In this episode, I use this song to discuss my observations and experiences related to vulnerability, love and safety in relationships, all types of relationships, and how that the lack of those three things contribute to an unfulfilled life.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Last July, I went to The Beach Boys’ concert at Deer Valley in Park City, Utah. Near the end of the concert, they played Don’t Worry Baby. I had heard the song before and always liked it, but I had never really listened to it. As I sat in the grass and Mike Love belted the song out, I heard it for the first time and it took on a whole new meaning. What seemed like silly lyrics that were there only because the amazing harmonies needed some lyrics became much deeper to me.

I realized that in 2 minutes and 51 seconds, Brian Wilson conveyed a powerful story about vulnerability, love and safety.

I left the next morning on a solo trip to Canyonlands National Park and ended up listening to Don’t Worry Baby on repeat for 3 days. I still listen to it on repeat regularly. Neither the music or the meaning ever gets old.

In this episode, I use this song to discuss my observations and experiences related to vulnerability, love and safety in relationships, all types of relationships, and how that the lack of those three things contribute to an unfulfilled life.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Last July, I went to The Beach Boys’ concert at Deer Valley in Park City, Utah. Near the end of the concert, they played Don’t Worry Baby. I had heard the song before and always liked it, but I had never really listened to it. As I sat in the grass and Mike Love belted the song out, I heard it for the first time and it took on a whole new meaning. What seemed like silly lyrics that were there only because the amazing harmonies needed some lyrics became much deeper to me.

I realized that in 2 minutes and 51 seconds, Brian Wilson conveyed a powerful story about vulnerability, love and safety.

I left the next morning on a solo trip to Canyonlands National Park and ended up listening to Don’t Worry Baby on repeat for 3 days. I still listen to it on repeat regularly. Neither the music or the meaning ever gets old.

In this episode, I use this song to discuss my observations and experiences related to vulnerability, love and safety in relationships, all types of relationships, and how that the lack of those three things contribute to an unfulfilled life.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+GFynNSWH ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 36: Courage is Found in Failure https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/36 f483cb9f-f04b-4692-96e8-8cf18b342bd2 Tue, 18 Jun 2024 07:15:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 36 Courage is Found in Failure full 1 Scott Edgar I sat down with Jackie Pack and we discussed courage including what it means and how we recognize it. We also discussed Brene Brown's statement: "I don't think we can get to courage without the capacity to deal with uncertainty, risk and emotional exposure." 1:23:53 false My heart fails at times
And longs for deep, endless sleep
In dreams I escape

Courage is found in failure
So, breath and open your eyes

I sat down with Jackie Pack and we discussed courage including what it means and how we recognize it. We also discussed Brene Brown's statement:

"I don't think we can get to courage without the capacity to deal with uncertainty, risk and emotional exposure."

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity My heart fails at times
And longs for deep, endless sleep
In dreams I escape

Courage is found in failure
So, breath and open your eyes

I sat down with Jackie Pack and we discussed courage including what it means and how we recognize it. We also discussed Brene Brown's statement:

"I don't think we can get to courage without the capacity to deal with uncertainty, risk and emotional exposure."

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> My heart fails at times
And longs for deep, endless sleep
In dreams I escape

Courage is found in failure
So, breath and open your eyes

I sat down with Jackie Pack and we discussed courage including what it means and how we recognize it. We also discussed Brene Brown's statement:

"I don't think we can get to courage without the capacity to deal with uncertainty, risk and emotional exposure."

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+vn1uVRrR ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT Episode 35: The Traveling Sisterhood https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/35 d3eecc27-0d44-4001-9dbe-f497f3422bbf Tue, 11 Jun 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 35 The Traveling Sisterhood full 1 Scott Edgar Angie is a mother, a photographer, an entrepreneur, a bringer-together of women for healing and a travel addict. She and I sat down and talked about the power of community in healing - especially a community of women for women. We talked about how she started the annual women’s retreats. And we talked about so, so much more. She’s a remarkable woman doing remarkable things amongst other remarkable women. 54:27 true Angie is a mother, a photographer, an entrepreneur, a bringer-together of women for healing and a travel addict. She and I sat down and talked about the power of community in healing - especially a community of women for women. We talked about how she started the annual women’s retreats. And we talked about so, so much more. She’s a remarkable woman doing remarkable things amongst other remarkable women.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Angie Monson.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Angie is a mother, a photographer, an entrepreneur, a bringer-together of women for healing and a travel addict. She and I sat down and talked about the power of community in healing - especially a community of women for women. We talked about how she started the annual women’s retreats. And we talked about so, so much more. She’s a remarkable woman doing remarkable things amongst other remarkable women.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Angie Monson.

]]> Angie is a mother, a photographer, an entrepreneur, a bringer-together of women for healing and a travel addict. She and I sat down and talked about the power of community in healing - especially a community of women for women. We talked about how she started the annual women’s retreats. And we talked about so, so much more. She’s a remarkable woman doing remarkable things amongst other remarkable women.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Angie Monson.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+Gl92b6gL ]]> Scott R. Edgar Angie Monson Episode 34: We have art lest we perish of the truth. ~ Nietzsche https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/34 0672fd10-d1a3-4499-8f5b-54c585a238c5 Tue, 04 Jun 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 34 We have art lest we perish of the truth. ~ Nietzsche full 1 Scott Edgar 1:12:44 false I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Gary and Jodi Maricich.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Gary and Jodi Maricich.

]]> I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Gary and Jodi Maricich.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+Vr1jz4mt ]]> Scott R. Edgar Gary and Jodi Maricich Episode 33: Nostalgia for Now, Part 2 https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/33 58c06948-d5e2-464b-8685-b981dc38fc2c Tue, 28 May 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 33 Nostalgia for Now, Part 2 full 1 Scott Edgar Part 2 of my conversation with SAW. See how the cliffhanger turns out and stay for the conclusion of our conversation in which Stephen takes over host duties and starts questioning me. 43:37 true I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: SAW.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: SAW.

]]> I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: SAW.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+chiI33Ve ]]> Scott R. Edgar SAW Episode 32: Nostalgia for Now, Part 1 https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/32 3eb6f9cc-4168-4a4e-a443-22c8e0bd6fca Tue, 21 May 2024 07:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 32 Nostalgia for Now, Part 1 full 1 Scott Edgar I met Stephen in high school in Collinsville, IL in 1988. I moved away after my junior year in 1991 and we have bumped into each other only a few times since, but before I moved away we had some grand times. In part 1, we talked about the grandest time we had together when we took a road trip to the east coast as two 17 year old boys (one with a horrible haircut) armed with fake IDs, a bag of audio cassettes, a rough idea of what we were going to do and…well, that was about it. 1:32:57 true I met Stephen in high school in Collinsville, IL in 1988. I moved away after my junior year in 1991 and we have bumped into each other only a few times since, but before I moved away we had some grand times. In part 1, we talked about the grandest time we had together when we took a road trip to the east coast as two 17 year old boys (one with a horrible haircut) armed with fake IDs, a bag of audio cassettes, a rough idea of what we were going to do and…well, that was about it.

If you liked the movie The Hangover, be sure to listen to this! (this may or may not be an oversell) You’ll laugh, you’ll cry, you’ll turn your head and gag.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: SAW.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I met Stephen in high school in Collinsville, IL in 1988. I moved away after my junior year in 1991 and we have bumped into each other only a few times since, but before I moved away we had some grand times. In part 1, we talked about the grandest time we had together when we took a road trip to the east coast as two 17 year old boys (one with a horrible haircut) armed with fake IDs, a bag of audio cassettes, a rough idea of what we were going to do and…well, that was about it.

If you liked the movie The Hangover, be sure to listen to this! (this may or may not be an oversell) You’ll laugh, you’ll cry, you’ll turn your head and gag.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: SAW.

]]> I met Stephen in high school in Collinsville, IL in 1988. I moved away after my junior year in 1991 and we have bumped into each other only a few times since, but before I moved away we had some grand times. In part 1, we talked about the grandest time we had together when we took a road trip to the east coast as two 17 year old boys (one with a horrible haircut) armed with fake IDs, a bag of audio cassettes, a rough idea of what we were going to do and…well, that was about it.

If you liked the movie The Hangover, be sure to listen to this! (this may or may not be an oversell) You’ll laugh, you’ll cry, you’ll turn your head and gag.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: SAW.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+aAT-9Ooa ]]> Scott R. Edgar SAW Episode 31: “i have been a thousand different woman” by emoryhall https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/31 129226c2-d0b1-4691-ab84-13ace3616d74 Thu, 16 May 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 31 “i have been a thousand different woman” by emoryhall full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined by my friend, Wendi Shavon. I asked Wendi to chose a poem to read and she chose “i have been a thousand different woman” by poet emoryhall. She read the poem and we discussed. 1:08:14 true make peace
with all the women
you once were.

lay flowers
at their feet.

offer them incense
and honey
and forgiveness.

honor them
and give them
your silence.

listen.

bless them
and let them be.

for they are the bones
of the temple
you sit in now.

for they are
the rivers
of wisdom
leading you toward
the sea.

// i have been a thousand different women

by Emory Hall

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Wendi Shavon.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity make peace
with all the women
you once were.

lay flowers
at their feet.

offer them incense
and honey
and forgiveness.

honor them
and give them
your silence.

listen.

bless them
and let them be.

for they are the bones
of the temple
you sit in now.

for they are
the rivers
of wisdom
leading you toward
the sea.

// i have been a thousand different women

by Emory Hall

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Wendi Shavon.

]]> make peace
with all the women
you once were.

lay flowers
at their feet.

offer them incense
and honey
and forgiveness.

honor them
and give them
your silence.

listen.

bless them
and let them be.

for they are the bones
of the temple
you sit in now.

for they are
the rivers
of wisdom
leading you toward
the sea.

// i have been a thousand different women

by Emory Hall

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Wendi Shavon.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+k-pOk8lm ]]> Scott R. Edgar Wendi Shavon Episode 30: “You don’t pass or fail at being a person, dear.” https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/30 27a64947-8c89-4a44-a5fb-b737a44e297e Tue, 30 Apr 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 30 “You don’t pass or fail at being a person, dear.” full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined by Rachel Allen, LCSW. She chose a quote from a favorite book of her, Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman, which includes the line, “You don’t pass or fail at being a person, dear.” 1:08:18 false Quote from Neil Gaiman's, Ocean at the End of the Lane:

"And did I pass?"
The face of the old woman on my right was unreadable in the gathering dusk. On my left the younger woman said, "You don't pass or fail at being a person dear.”

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Rachel Allen, LCSW, CSAT.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Quote from Neil Gaiman's, Ocean at the End of the Lane:

"And did I pass?"
The face of the old woman on my right was unreadable in the gathering dusk. On my left the younger woman said, "You don't pass or fail at being a person dear.”

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Rachel Allen, LCSW, CSAT.

]]> Quote from Neil Gaiman's, Ocean at the End of the Lane:

"And did I pass?"
The face of the old woman on my right was unreadable in the gathering dusk. On my left the younger woman said, "You don't pass or fail at being a person dear.”

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Rachel Allen, LCSW, CSAT.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+3j4PKs4u ]]> Scott R. Edgar Rachel Allen, LCSW, CSAT Episode 29: This Be the Verse by Philip Larkin https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/29 0011480e-491e-48af-a71c-a3b642fc172e Thu, 25 Apr 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 29 This Be the Verse by Philip Larkin full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined by my friend Tyler Mathis who reads Philip Larkin’s poem “This Be The Verse.” We discuss the trauma passed down from generation to generation and ways that we are dealing with it and hopefully breaking the chain. 54:21 true This Be The Verse
BY PHILIP LARKIN

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.

They may not mean to, but they do.

They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,

Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another’s throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don’t have any kids yourself.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Tyler Mathis.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity This Be The Verse
BY PHILIP LARKIN

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.

They may not mean to, but they do.

They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,

Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another’s throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don’t have any kids yourself.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Tyler Mathis.

]]> This Be The Verse
BY PHILIP LARKIN

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.

They may not mean to, but they do.

They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,

Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another’s throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don’t have any kids yourself.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Tyler Mathis.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+In9iaUHY ]]> Scott R. Edgar Tyler Mathis Episode 28: Wild Geese by Mary Oliver https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/28 79596a19-705f-48a4-93d0-8c99ea62795d Fri, 12 Apr 2024 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 28 Wild Geese by Mary Oliver full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined again by Josh Baron and we read Mary Oliver’s poem, Wild Geese, and discuss the idea that “we do not have to be good.” 1:00:25 false I'd love to hear any thoughts about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

WILD GEESE
by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I'd love to hear any thoughts about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

WILD GEESE
by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> I'd love to hear any thoughts about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

WILD GEESE
by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+MYFliU65 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Josh Baron Episode 27: The Capacity of Your Tears https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/27 d931bbb2-236e-4226-b2a1-c8a1473f222a Sat, 25 Nov 2023 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 27 The Capacity of Your Tears full 1 Scott Edgar We can't do it all alone. Sometimes, we need to reach out for help and that's not always easy. In fact, in my experience, it's rarely easy. In this episode, I discuss three obstacles that get in my way of asking for help. 1:06:42 false We can't do it all alone. Sometimes, we need to reach out for help and that's not always easy. In fact, in my experience, it's rarely easy. In this episode, I discuss three obstacles that get in my way of asking for help.

The Capacity of Your Tears

How many mornings
Are filled with desperate tears
That never sound
In another's ears because
You feel they are
Hopeless
And only serve to ease
Your pain for the coming day:
So why worry others when
The tears will come again
Regardless?

But how many mornings
Before your pain exceeds
The capacity of your tears?

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity We can't do it all alone. Sometimes, we need to reach out for help and that's not always easy. In fact, in my experience, it's rarely easy. In this episode, I discuss three obstacles that get in my way of asking for help.

The Capacity of Your Tears

How many mornings
Are filled with desperate tears
That never sound
In another's ears because
You feel they are
Hopeless
And only serve to ease
Your pain for the coming day:
So why worry others when
The tears will come again
Regardless?

But how many mornings
Before your pain exceeds
The capacity of your tears?

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> We can't do it all alone. Sometimes, we need to reach out for help and that's not always easy. In fact, in my experience, it's rarely easy. In this episode, I discuss three obstacles that get in my way of asking for help.

The Capacity of Your Tears

How many mornings
Are filled with desperate tears
That never sound
In another's ears because
You feel they are
Hopeless
And only serve to ease
Your pain for the coming day:
So why worry others when
The tears will come again
Regardless?

But how many mornings
Before your pain exceeds
The capacity of your tears?

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+K73emfNV ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 26: The Burning Comes First https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/26 e95a64d2-63b6-4518-809f-1e9a9217845e Tue, 07 Nov 2023 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 26 The Burning Comes First full 1 Scott Edgar Carl Jung said, “There is no coming to consciousness without pain.” My experience has been that this is true and in this episode, I use a poem by Kalen Dion as a way to introduce Jung’s concept and then discuss my experiences with change. 25:17 false Yes,
You will rise from the ashes,
But the burning comes first.

For this part,
Darling,
You must be brave.

by Kalen Dion

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity Yes,
You will rise from the ashes,
But the burning comes first.

For this part,
Darling,
You must be brave.

by Kalen Dion

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> Yes,
You will rise from the ashes,
But the burning comes first.

For this part,
Darling,
You must be brave.

by Kalen Dion

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+KRT-IEJc ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 25: Terrible Potential (redux) https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/25 9112ce5c-b42a-4f39-ab77-0aeb319ab310 Sun, 06 Aug 2023 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 25 Terrible Potential (redux) full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I revisit my poem, Terrible Potential, and talk about ways in which it applies to my recovery. 1:04:29 false TERRIBLE POTENTIAL

I see it now
For years I only sensed it
Or saw the dissipating dust tails of its approach
But it filled me with terror
And there was no cover or protection
So I ran
As fast as my child stride could take me
Not even knowing what it was –
Only that it was coming
But that made the fear so much more
In my little mind
So I ran harder
Until I forgot why I was running –
Only knowing that I couldn’t stop

But I see it now
Its shape is fluid and undefined
And its terrible potential fills my mind
I want to keep running – retreating
But it won’t stop and
It’s closing the gap and
It’s more terrible than I ever thought
But its real – I see it now
And I know
There’s no escape, there never was.
But I want to keep running anyway
Until it overtakes me
I won’t see it coming; it will just happen and be done
But my insufficient legs refuse to carry me anymore
So I prostrate myself as an offering

I know you’re coming, I whisper,
And I offer myself willingly

This is not defeat, I reassure myself
Then lower my eyes
And brace for its fury

But my mind keeps moving – defiantly
It knows truths that my body forgot
And reminds me:

You were born with claws
And they’re with you still –

And I remember and feel them
They are deep, but I feel them and they are there
So, I raise my body from the dirt and
My eyes to the distance
It is closer now – the gap disappearing
But not my fear. My fear is growing
(broadcast loudly by my beating heart)
But I no longer want to run
Nor offer myself willingly
Instead, I watch it come and I wait – in fear, true
But I wait to receive it
And I steady myself.

I have claws and I feel them
And I will meet it face to face
I have terrible potential too
I feel it now.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity TERRIBLE POTENTIAL

I see it now
For years I only sensed it
Or saw the dissipating dust tails of its approach
But it filled me with terror
And there was no cover or protection
So I ran
As fast as my child stride could take me
Not even knowing what it was –
Only that it was coming
But that made the fear so much more
In my little mind
So I ran harder
Until I forgot why I was running –
Only knowing that I couldn’t stop

But I see it now
Its shape is fluid and undefined
And its terrible potential fills my mind
I want to keep running – retreating
But it won’t stop and
It’s closing the gap and
It’s more terrible than I ever thought
But its real – I see it now
And I know
There’s no escape, there never was.
But I want to keep running anyway
Until it overtakes me
I won’t see it coming; it will just happen and be done
But my insufficient legs refuse to carry me anymore
So I prostrate myself as an offering

I know you’re coming, I whisper,
And I offer myself willingly

This is not defeat, I reassure myself
Then lower my eyes
And brace for its fury

But my mind keeps moving – defiantly
It knows truths that my body forgot
And reminds me:

You were born with claws
And they’re with you still –

And I remember and feel them
They are deep, but I feel them and they are there
So, I raise my body from the dirt and
My eyes to the distance
It is closer now – the gap disappearing
But not my fear. My fear is growing
(broadcast loudly by my beating heart)
But I no longer want to run
Nor offer myself willingly
Instead, I watch it come and I wait – in fear, true
But I wait to receive it
And I steady myself.

I have claws and I feel them
And I will meet it face to face
I have terrible potential too
I feel it now.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> TERRIBLE POTENTIAL

I see it now
For years I only sensed it
Or saw the dissipating dust tails of its approach
But it filled me with terror
And there was no cover or protection
So I ran
As fast as my child stride could take me
Not even knowing what it was –
Only that it was coming
But that made the fear so much more
In my little mind
So I ran harder
Until I forgot why I was running –
Only knowing that I couldn’t stop

But I see it now
Its shape is fluid and undefined
And its terrible potential fills my mind
I want to keep running – retreating
But it won’t stop and
It’s closing the gap and
It’s more terrible than I ever thought
But its real – I see it now
And I know
There’s no escape, there never was.
But I want to keep running anyway
Until it overtakes me
I won’t see it coming; it will just happen and be done
But my insufficient legs refuse to carry me anymore
So I prostrate myself as an offering

I know you’re coming, I whisper,
And I offer myself willingly

This is not defeat, I reassure myself
Then lower my eyes
And brace for its fury

But my mind keeps moving – defiantly
It knows truths that my body forgot
And reminds me:

You were born with claws
And they’re with you still –

And I remember and feel them
They are deep, but I feel them and they are there
So, I raise my body from the dirt and
My eyes to the distance
It is closer now – the gap disappearing
But not my fear. My fear is growing
(broadcast loudly by my beating heart)
But I no longer want to run
Nor offer myself willingly
Instead, I watch it come and I wait – in fear, true
But I wait to receive it
And I steady myself.

I have claws and I feel them
And I will meet it face to face
I have terrible potential too
I feel it now.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+zmfTopQ- ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 24: Love People Equally https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/24 c5ef536a-66ee-45ab-a742-a40b50a8303c Mon, 08 May 2023 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 24 Love People Equally full 1 Scott Edgar My daughter Ruby and I were the only ones home, so I decided to record an episode of The Poet (delayed) with her. We talked about her track and field season that just finished up, softball, boys, poetry, music, flying fish and boys. 36:39 false My daughter Ruby and I were the only ones home, so I decided to record an episode of The Poet (delayed) with her. We talked about her track and field season that just finished up, softball, boys, poetry, music, flying fish and boys.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ruby Edgar.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity My daughter Ruby and I were the only ones home, so I decided to record an episode of The Poet (delayed) with her. We talked about her track and field season that just finished up, softball, boys, poetry, music, flying fish and boys.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ruby Edgar.

]]> My daughter Ruby and I were the only ones home, so I decided to record an episode of The Poet (delayed) with her. We talked about her track and field season that just finished up, softball, boys, poetry, music, flying fish and boys.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ruby Edgar.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+0s4VN4Js ]]> Scott R. Edgar Ruby Edgar Episode 23: “…the catching of my whole heart” https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/23 ee239dc2-a6e6-4183-8e3f-57f65c8149dd Wed, 03 May 2023 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 23 “…the catching of my whole heart” full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined by my friend and poet, Kelli Stephens and she read her unnamed poem from which I grabbed the title of this episode, “…the catching of my whole heart.” We discussed healing, religion, leaving religion, finding yourself and finding peace in your sovereignty and much, much more. 1:38:35 true My friend and poet, Kelli Stephens joined me and she read her unnamed poem from which I grabbed the title of this episode, “…the catching of my whole heart.” We discussed healing, religion, leaving religion, finding yourself and finding peace in your sovereignty and much, much more.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

[Cover Image from Unsplash.com by Mohamed Nohassi ](Photo by Mohamed Nohassi on Unsplash )

Instagram: @mnohassi

Special Guest: Kelli Stephens.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity My friend and poet, Kelli Stephens joined me and she read her unnamed poem from which I grabbed the title of this episode, “…the catching of my whole heart.” We discussed healing, religion, leaving religion, finding yourself and finding peace in your sovereignty and much, much more.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

[Cover Image from Unsplash.com by Mohamed Nohassi ](Photo by Mohamed Nohassi on Unsplash )

Instagram: @mnohassi

Special Guest: Kelli Stephens.

]]> My friend and poet, Kelli Stephens joined me and she read her unnamed poem from which I grabbed the title of this episode, “…the catching of my whole heart.” We discussed healing, religion, leaving religion, finding yourself and finding peace in your sovereignty and much, much more.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

[Cover Image from Unsplash.com by Mohamed Nohassi ](Photo by Mohamed Nohassi on Unsplash )

Instagram: @mnohassi

Special Guest: Kelli Stephens.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+XpStqa-0 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Kelli Stephens Episode 22: Meaningful Life https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/22 78d369ea-69a9-4987-a4dc-4c403e25521f Tue, 11 Apr 2023 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 22 Meaningful Life full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined by neuropsychologist Ben Christiansen in episode 22 of The Poet (delayed). We read my haiku, Meaningful Life and discussed what a meaningful life consists of and how we can work towards one. Hint: it involves math…well, equations at least. 1:45:08 false I was joined by neuropsychologist Ben Christiansen in episode 22 of The Poet (delayed). We read my haiku, Meaningful Life and discussed what a meaningful life consists of and how we can work towards one. Hint: it involves math…well, equations at least.

Meaningful Life

Having fame and wealth
Brings no true, lasting meaning
Such is found within

Concussion Baseline

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ben Christiansen.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity I was joined by neuropsychologist Ben Christiansen in episode 22 of The Poet (delayed). We read my haiku, Meaningful Life and discussed what a meaningful life consists of and how we can work towards one. Hint: it involves math…well, equations at least.

Meaningful Life

Having fame and wealth
Brings no true, lasting meaning
Such is found within

Concussion Baseline

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ben Christiansen.

Links:

]]> I was joined by neuropsychologist Ben Christiansen in episode 22 of The Poet (delayed). We read my haiku, Meaningful Life and discussed what a meaningful life consists of and how we can work towards one. Hint: it involves math…well, equations at least.

Meaningful Life

Having fame and wealth
Brings no true, lasting meaning
Such is found within

Concussion Baseline

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Ben Christiansen.

Links:

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+WMZOhezC ]]> Scott R. Edgar Ben Christiansen Episode 21: Comprehend Yourself https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/21 4990e572-173b-408a-83ad-d54f4ff8e125 Fri, 07 Apr 2023 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 21 Comprehend Yourself full 1 Scott Edgar In the summer of 1991, I nearly drown at Deer Creek Reservoir near Heber City, Utah. My poem, Comprehend Yourself, is a summary of that event, and in this episode of The Poet (delayed), Mechelle Wingle and I discuss that poem and its meaning and meanings. 1:39:18 false In the summer of 1991, I nearly drown at Deer Creek Reservoir near Heber City, Utah. My poem, Comprehend Yourself, is a summary of that event, and in this episode of The Poet (delayed), Mechelle Wingle and I discuss that poem and its meaning and meanings.

COMPREHEND YOURSELF

I know,
As I floated above a watery grave -
alone and exhausted,
With no one aware and
No strength to deliver myself
That despite your worlds without number
With their countless inhabitants,
You knew
And delivered me.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Cover Photo/header by Photo of the boy in the water by Noah Buscher on Unsplash

Special Guest: Mechelle Wingle.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity In the summer of 1991, I nearly drown at Deer Creek Reservoir near Heber City, Utah. My poem, Comprehend Yourself, is a summary of that event, and in this episode of The Poet (delayed), Mechelle Wingle and I discuss that poem and its meaning and meanings.

COMPREHEND YOURSELF

I know,
As I floated above a watery grave -
alone and exhausted,
With no one aware and
No strength to deliver myself
That despite your worlds without number
With their countless inhabitants,
You knew
And delivered me.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Cover Photo/header by Photo of the boy in the water by Noah Buscher on Unsplash

Special Guest: Mechelle Wingle.

]]> In the summer of 1991, I nearly drown at Deer Creek Reservoir near Heber City, Utah. My poem, Comprehend Yourself, is a summary of that event, and in this episode of The Poet (delayed), Mechelle Wingle and I discuss that poem and its meaning and meanings.

COMPREHEND YOURSELF

I know,
As I floated above a watery grave -
alone and exhausted,
With no one aware and
No strength to deliver myself
That despite your worlds without number
With their countless inhabitants,
You knew
And delivered me.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Cover Photo/header by Photo of the boy in the water by Noah Buscher on Unsplash

Special Guest: Mechelle Wingle.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+mRTeQkdM ]]> Scott R. Edgar Mechelle Wingle Episode 20: They Were Beacons Once https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/20 c069cc8b-bcc0-4990-92b9-c43c566635a9 Mon, 06 Mar 2023 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 20 They Were Beacons Once full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I'm joined by Las Vegas based therapist, Brad Singletary as we read my poem, "They Were Beacons Once," and have a discussion about addiction, its cause and recovery. 1:05:57 true THEY WERE BEACONS ONCE

They are out there.
You know them by their void,
Their masks of nothingness.
But they are something and voracious –
Consuming, in large amounts,
Everything
Completely
Their prey rage in vain
Then submit in silence;
No distress signals sent –
Even sound is consumed (and light)
In their dark bellies.
But they were beacons once
And they shined.

Addiction can be so consuming that it turns shining people into metaphorical black holes. It has the power, with drugs and alcohol, at least, to destroy people so completely that we eventually "know them by their void,/their masks of nothingness."

Thoreau wrote: “There are a thousand hacking at the branches of evil to one who is striking at the root.” This profound statement has its application in the struggle with addiction. In order to effectively take one’s life back, it is important to understand what addiction is and what it’s primary causes are so that we can strike at its root rather than just hacking at its branches.

Hungarian-Canadian physician, Gabor Maté defined addiction as follows:

"Any behavior that a person finds relief in and therefore craves in the short-term, but suffers negative consequences in the long-term and doesn't give up despite the negative consequences."

Importantly, Dr. Maté also explains that addiction is not a moral failure or an indication of weakness. “Addiction is not the primary problem. It’s an attempt to solve a problem.”

In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I'm joined by Las Vegas based therapist, Brad Singletary as we read my poem, "They Were Beacons Once," and have a discussion about addiction, its cause and recovery.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Brad Singletary, LCSW.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity THEY WERE BEACONS ONCE

They are out there.
You know them by their void,
Their masks of nothingness.
But they are something and voracious –
Consuming, in large amounts,
Everything
Completely
Their prey rage in vain
Then submit in silence;
No distress signals sent –
Even sound is consumed (and light)
In their dark bellies.
But they were beacons once
And they shined.

Addiction can be so consuming that it turns shining people into metaphorical black holes. It has the power, with drugs and alcohol, at least, to destroy people so completely that we eventually "know them by their void,/their masks of nothingness."

Thoreau wrote: “There are a thousand hacking at the branches of evil to one who is striking at the root.” This profound statement has its application in the struggle with addiction. In order to effectively take one’s life back, it is important to understand what addiction is and what it’s primary causes are so that we can strike at its root rather than just hacking at its branches.

Hungarian-Canadian physician, Gabor Maté defined addiction as follows:

"Any behavior that a person finds relief in and therefore craves in the short-term, but suffers negative consequences in the long-term and doesn't give up despite the negative consequences."

Importantly, Dr. Maté also explains that addiction is not a moral failure or an indication of weakness. “Addiction is not the primary problem. It’s an attempt to solve a problem.”

In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I'm joined by Las Vegas based therapist, Brad Singletary as we read my poem, "They Were Beacons Once," and have a discussion about addiction, its cause and recovery.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Brad Singletary, LCSW.

Links:

]]> THEY WERE BEACONS ONCE

They are out there.
You know them by their void,
Their masks of nothingness.
But they are something and voracious –
Consuming, in large amounts,
Everything
Completely
Their prey rage in vain
Then submit in silence;
No distress signals sent –
Even sound is consumed (and light)
In their dark bellies.
But they were beacons once
And they shined.

Addiction can be so consuming that it turns shining people into metaphorical black holes. It has the power, with drugs and alcohol, at least, to destroy people so completely that we eventually "know them by their void,/their masks of nothingness."

Thoreau wrote: “There are a thousand hacking at the branches of evil to one who is striking at the root.” This profound statement has its application in the struggle with addiction. In order to effectively take one’s life back, it is important to understand what addiction is and what it’s primary causes are so that we can strike at its root rather than just hacking at its branches.

Hungarian-Canadian physician, Gabor Maté defined addiction as follows:

"Any behavior that a person finds relief in and therefore craves in the short-term, but suffers negative consequences in the long-term and doesn't give up despite the negative consequences."

Importantly, Dr. Maté also explains that addiction is not a moral failure or an indication of weakness. “Addiction is not the primary problem. It’s an attempt to solve a problem.”

In this episode of The Poet (delayed), I'm joined by Las Vegas based therapist, Brad Singletary as we read my poem, "They Were Beacons Once," and have a discussion about addiction, its cause and recovery.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Brad Singletary, LCSW.

Links:

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+CJ66SMd9 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Brad Singletary, LCSW Episode 19: Dark Canopy https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/19 0c85ea8d-251b-456a-a0ce-ff124a219188 Mon, 27 Feb 2023 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 19 Dark Canopy full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I’m joined again by Jackie Pack as I read my poem Dark Canopy and we discuss depression. 1:40:16 true It’s safe to assume that we all suffer from bouts of depression at times. As Neil Diamond sang:

Song sung blue
Everybody knows one

Song sung blue
Every garden grows one.

Me and you are subject to
The blues now and then

"Song Sung Blue," Neil Diamond

And, while more often than not, most of us have been able to take Neil’s advice to “take the blues and make a song [and] sing them out again,” whether metaphorically or literally, some of us have suffered or are suffering through depression so deep and encompassing that song is unable to penetrate and the desire to even sing a song is, at best, like a drop of water on a hot skillet, and, at worst, a stomach turning, repulsive thought, and that is a scary and dangerous place to be. In those times, it’s especially vital that we are able to notice the signs in ourselves and others and then reach out for help or reach out to help, respectively. Because, in those times, we can lose the ability to lift ourselves up. We lose the ability to put a smile on our face. We lose the ability to have an attitude of gratitude. And so, we need to be lifted up, and we need to lift up. In the words of Townes Van Zandt:

If I needed you
Would you come to me?
Would you come to me?
And ease my pain?

If you needed me
I would come to you
I would swim the seas
For to ease you pain

If I Needed You, Townes Van Zandt

In this episode, Jackie Pack and I discuss depression, situational and clinical (major depressive disorder) including what differentiates them. We discuss ways that we can help ourselves and each other as we pass through those days, weeks, months or years when we feel hopelessness covering us.

"He Ain't Heavy He's My Brother" by Neil Diamond

"If I Needed You" by Townes Van Zandt

Dark Canopy

Hopelessness covers me:
Like a forest canopy
On a moonless night
It covers me.
I see no way or path
To deliver myself.
And the darkness:
It fills my eyes.
And they are unable to see
The torchlight
Of rescuers who may approach.
All is black and dead.
Every gleam is only a phantom.
And the only variations in light
Are darker shadows
Waiting to finish me off
For good.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, creativity It’s safe to assume that we all suffer from bouts of depression at times. As Neil Diamond sang:

Song sung blue
Everybody knows one

Song sung blue
Every garden grows one.

Me and you are subject to
The blues now and then

"Song Sung Blue," Neil Diamond

And, while more often than not, most of us have been able to take Neil’s advice to “take the blues and make a song [and] sing them out again,” whether metaphorically or literally, some of us have suffered or are suffering through depression so deep and encompassing that song is unable to penetrate and the desire to even sing a song is, at best, like a drop of water on a hot skillet, and, at worst, a stomach turning, repulsive thought, and that is a scary and dangerous place to be. In those times, it’s especially vital that we are able to notice the signs in ourselves and others and then reach out for help or reach out to help, respectively. Because, in those times, we can lose the ability to lift ourselves up. We lose the ability to put a smile on our face. We lose the ability to have an attitude of gratitude. And so, we need to be lifted up, and we need to lift up. In the words of Townes Van Zandt:

If I needed you
Would you come to me?
Would you come to me?
And ease my pain?

If you needed me
I would come to you
I would swim the seas
For to ease you pain

If I Needed You, Townes Van Zandt

In this episode, Jackie Pack and I discuss depression, situational and clinical (major depressive disorder) including what differentiates them. We discuss ways that we can help ourselves and each other as we pass through those days, weeks, months or years when we feel hopelessness covering us.

"He Ain't Heavy He's My Brother" by Neil Diamond

"If I Needed You" by Townes Van Zandt

Dark Canopy

Hopelessness covers me:
Like a forest canopy
On a moonless night
It covers me.
I see no way or path
To deliver myself.
And the darkness:
It fills my eyes.
And they are unable to see
The torchlight
Of rescuers who may approach.
All is black and dead.
Every gleam is only a phantom.
And the only variations in light
Are darker shadows
Waiting to finish me off
For good.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> It’s safe to assume that we all suffer from bouts of depression at times. As Neil Diamond sang:

Song sung blue
Everybody knows one

Song sung blue
Every garden grows one.

Me and you are subject to
The blues now and then

"Song Sung Blue," Neil Diamond

And, while more often than not, most of us have been able to take Neil’s advice to “take the blues and make a song [and] sing them out again,” whether metaphorically or literally, some of us have suffered or are suffering through depression so deep and encompassing that song is unable to penetrate and the desire to even sing a song is, at best, like a drop of water on a hot skillet, and, at worst, a stomach turning, repulsive thought, and that is a scary and dangerous place to be. In those times, it’s especially vital that we are able to notice the signs in ourselves and others and then reach out for help or reach out to help, respectively. Because, in those times, we can lose the ability to lift ourselves up. We lose the ability to put a smile on our face. We lose the ability to have an attitude of gratitude. And so, we need to be lifted up, and we need to lift up. In the words of Townes Van Zandt:

If I needed you
Would you come to me?
Would you come to me?
And ease my pain?

If you needed me
I would come to you
I would swim the seas
For to ease you pain

If I Needed You, Townes Van Zandt

In this episode, Jackie Pack and I discuss depression, situational and clinical (major depressive disorder) including what differentiates them. We discuss ways that we can help ourselves and each other as we pass through those days, weeks, months or years when we feel hopelessness covering us.

"He Ain't Heavy He's My Brother" by Neil Diamond

"If I Needed You" by Townes Van Zandt

Dark Canopy

Hopelessness covers me:
Like a forest canopy
On a moonless night
It covers me.
I see no way or path
To deliver myself.
And the darkness:
It fills my eyes.
And they are unable to see
The torchlight
Of rescuers who may approach.
All is black and dead.
Every gleam is only a phantom.
And the only variations in light
Are darker shadows
Waiting to finish me off
For good.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

My first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is availabe for purchase at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Amazon.com

Holding my book at The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+Uyf9Eqs1 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT Episode 18: I'm a Poet https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/18 ba459d39-a1a4-441d-be6a-f3ee98fcbfbc Mon, 20 Feb 2023 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 18 I'm a Poet full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined this episode by Salt Lake City based author, poet, editor and my new friend, Jennifer Adams. I read my poem, “I’m a Poet,” and we discuss the power of literature and poetry and then talk to her about her new children’s book, All’s Right With the World, that comes out March 7, 2023. 57:19 false I've come to believe that those works of literature and poetry that have stood the test of time have more to offer those seeking a meaningful life than all the self help books in the world. They have the ability to bypass the protective walls that so many of us build around our gentle, scared and vulnerable hearts - those walls that stand firm and umoveable in the face of seeming frontal assaults by the well meaning self help books (which, tellingly, often reference those works to make their point). This is so, it seems, because they speak to us through stories and myths that set themselves in our hearts and minds - ready for recall when we are ready to learn, much like Christ's reason for teaching in parables: He that hath ears to hear, let him hear.

Also, I believe that the reason these great works of literature and poetry persist is because they were inspired by and deal with the human condition - the basics of which remain constant as evidenced by the fact that the adventures of Odysseus still permeate our culture, whether in print, on stage or on film ("O, Brother Where are Thou?" - classic) more than 2,500 years after Homer handed them down. "The Odyssey" and "The Illiad" persist because the same passions that ran through the veins of Homer run through ours and, more importantly, he, like the great writers throughout history, had the gift to genuinely infuse that passion into his stories and characters. ("East of Eden" in my hands or probably in most hands, for instance, wouldn't have even found a publisher, but in Steinbeck's hands, we were given as powerful a story/lesson as I've ever read.) So, we feel their pain with defeat and their joy with victory. We relate when they stumble and fall from grace, and as a result, we don't feel so alone in our brokenness.

The same can be said for the enduring stories, poems and mythologies of all cultures: they endure because they resonate with our humanity and they remind us what it means to be human. And then, when we are ready, we can find in them comfort or learning or both as has so many people before us.

In episode 18 of The Poet (delayed), read my poem, "I'm a Poet" and I am joined by Salt Lake City based author, poet, editor and my new friend, Jennifer Adams. I read my poem, "I'm a Poet," and Jen and I discuss the power of literature and poetry as well as her newest of book, "All's Right With the World," inspired by Robert Browning's poem, Pippa's Song, which will be released March 7, 2023. It can be pre-purchased at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Barnes and Noble

I'M A POET

I'm a wordsmith.
Wielding my Montblanc hammer
On my Moleskine anvil.
I shape words and forge them together.
Quenching them in my inky oil to temper them.
To make them hard for breaking souls.

I'm a word weaver.
Weaving on my parchment loom,
I guide the weft threads of metaphors
Through taut warp threads of nouns and verbs.
Resulting in a strong, velvety weave
For binding up broken souls.

I'm a painter.
My palette is full of words for mixing:
Some fresh and liquid, some dry and hard.
At times I work them smooth and technical
(Vermeer in verse).
Other times raw and passionate
(Van Gogh in verse)
Each painting with an Abrahamic number of interpretations.

I'm a wordsmith
I'm a weaver
I'm a painter
I'm a poet.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps is available for purchase at

Amazon.com

and

The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity I've come to believe that those works of literature and poetry that have stood the test of time have more to offer those seeking a meaningful life than all the self help books in the world. They have the ability to bypass the protective walls that so many of us build around our gentle, scared and vulnerable hearts - those walls that stand firm and umoveable in the face of seeming frontal assaults by the well meaning self help books (which, tellingly, often reference those works to make their point). This is so, it seems, because they speak to us through stories and myths that set themselves in our hearts and minds - ready for recall when we are ready to learn, much like Christ's reason for teaching in parables: He that hath ears to hear, let him hear.

Also, I believe that the reason these great works of literature and poetry persist is because they were inspired by and deal with the human condition - the basics of which remain constant as evidenced by the fact that the adventures of Odysseus still permeate our culture, whether in print, on stage or on film ("O, Brother Where are Thou?" - classic) more than 2,500 years after Homer handed them down. "The Odyssey" and "The Illiad" persist because the same passions that ran through the veins of Homer run through ours and, more importantly, he, like the great writers throughout history, had the gift to genuinely infuse that passion into his stories and characters. ("East of Eden" in my hands or probably in most hands, for instance, wouldn't have even found a publisher, but in Steinbeck's hands, we were given as powerful a story/lesson as I've ever read.) So, we feel their pain with defeat and their joy with victory. We relate when they stumble and fall from grace, and as a result, we don't feel so alone in our brokenness.

The same can be said for the enduring stories, poems and mythologies of all cultures: they endure because they resonate with our humanity and they remind us what it means to be human. And then, when we are ready, we can find in them comfort or learning or both as has so many people before us.

In episode 18 of The Poet (delayed), read my poem, "I'm a Poet" and I am joined by Salt Lake City based author, poet, editor and my new friend, Jennifer Adams. I read my poem, "I'm a Poet," and Jen and I discuss the power of literature and poetry as well as her newest of book, "All's Right With the World," inspired by Robert Browning's poem, Pippa's Song, which will be released March 7, 2023. It can be pre-purchased at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Barnes and Noble

I'M A POET

I'm a wordsmith.
Wielding my Montblanc hammer
On my Moleskine anvil.
I shape words and forge them together.
Quenching them in my inky oil to temper them.
To make them hard for breaking souls.

I'm a word weaver.
Weaving on my parchment loom,
I guide the weft threads of metaphors
Through taut warp threads of nouns and verbs.
Resulting in a strong, velvety weave
For binding up broken souls.

I'm a painter.
My palette is full of words for mixing:
Some fresh and liquid, some dry and hard.
At times I work them smooth and technical
(Vermeer in verse).
Other times raw and passionate
(Van Gogh in verse)
Each painting with an Abrahamic number of interpretations.

I'm a wordsmith
I'm a weaver
I'm a painter
I'm a poet.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps is available for purchase at

Amazon.com

and

The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> I've come to believe that those works of literature and poetry that have stood the test of time have more to offer those seeking a meaningful life than all the self help books in the world. They have the ability to bypass the protective walls that so many of us build around our gentle, scared and vulnerable hearts - those walls that stand firm and umoveable in the face of seeming frontal assaults by the well meaning self help books (which, tellingly, often reference those works to make their point). This is so, it seems, because they speak to us through stories and myths that set themselves in our hearts and minds - ready for recall when we are ready to learn, much like Christ's reason for teaching in parables: He that hath ears to hear, let him hear.

Also, I believe that the reason these great works of literature and poetry persist is because they were inspired by and deal with the human condition - the basics of which remain constant as evidenced by the fact that the adventures of Odysseus still permeate our culture, whether in print, on stage or on film ("O, Brother Where are Thou?" - classic) more than 2,500 years after Homer handed them down. "The Odyssey" and "The Illiad" persist because the same passions that ran through the veins of Homer run through ours and, more importantly, he, like the great writers throughout history, had the gift to genuinely infuse that passion into his stories and characters. ("East of Eden" in my hands or probably in most hands, for instance, wouldn't have even found a publisher, but in Steinbeck's hands, we were given as powerful a story/lesson as I've ever read.) So, we feel their pain with defeat and their joy with victory. We relate when they stumble and fall from grace, and as a result, we don't feel so alone in our brokenness.

The same can be said for the enduring stories, poems and mythologies of all cultures: they endure because they resonate with our humanity and they remind us what it means to be human. And then, when we are ready, we can find in them comfort or learning or both as has so many people before us.

In episode 18 of The Poet (delayed), read my poem, "I'm a Poet" and I am joined by Salt Lake City based author, poet, editor and my new friend, Jennifer Adams. I read my poem, "I'm a Poet," and Jen and I discuss the power of literature and poetry as well as her newest of book, "All's Right With the World," inspired by Robert Browning's poem, Pippa's Song, which will be released March 7, 2023. It can be pre-purchased at

The King's English Bookshop

and

Barnes and Noble

I'M A POET

I'm a wordsmith.
Wielding my Montblanc hammer
On my Moleskine anvil.
I shape words and forge them together.
Quenching them in my inky oil to temper them.
To make them hard for breaking souls.

I'm a word weaver.
Weaving on my parchment loom,
I guide the weft threads of metaphors
Through taut warp threads of nouns and verbs.
Resulting in a strong, velvety weave
For binding up broken souls.

I'm a painter.
My palette is full of words for mixing:
Some fresh and liquid, some dry and hard.
At times I work them smooth and technical
(Vermeer in verse).
Other times raw and passionate
(Van Gogh in verse)
Each painting with an Abrahamic number of interpretations.

I'm a wordsmith
I'm a weaver
I'm a painter
I'm a poet.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps is available for purchase at

Amazon.com

and

The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Jennifer Adams.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+QkDBQ7bu ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jennifer Adams Episode 17: She is Steady and She Waits https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/17 bb237dd2-3d9c-4a04-a9cd-9ab1f877a21f Mon, 23 Jan 2023 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 17 She is Steady and She Waits full 1 Scott Edgar I was joined by Allison Spencer as we read and discussed my poem, She is Steady and She Waits. Allison was diagnosed with Stage 2 Unfavorable Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. (By the way, “unfavorable”? Who comes up with these terms, soccer match announcers? - “That was unlucky!”) But as terrifying as that was, she rose up to battle and, with the help of family, friends and competent medical providers, she waged battle as a head shorn warrior and the cancer is now in remission. 1:00:34 false On April 11, 1984, my family moved to Bountiful, Utah from Ramstein Air Base in Germany. My mom had just passed away a few days earlier. One of the first orders of business when we got to Bountiful, was to enroll me and my siblings in school. I was enrolled at Hannah Holbrook Elementary School for the last couple of months of 4th grade, and was assigned to Ms. Boulton’s class. I don’t remember much from those couple of months nor do I really remember meeting anyone at the time other than a few friends who lived close to my house, John Mayer, for instance – but not that John Mayer. But in my class was a girl named Allison Coombs (now Spencer). We didn’t spend time together or hang out per se. In fact, I don’t have any memories of her. But last June, she friended me on Facebook and I knew her name and I knew her face immediately. She’s told me since that she doesn’t have any memories of me either – I was just the boy who came and went. In the months since, she has commented on a few of my posts and has been very kind and encouraging to me about my poetry and my podcast. And I’ve learned a few things about her as we’ve reconnected a friendship neither of us remembered having.

Among the things I’ve learned is that in November 2021, Allison was diagnosed with Stage 2 Unfavorable Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. (By the way, “unfavorable”? Who comes up with these terms, soccer match announcers? - “That was unlucky!”) But as terrifying as that was, she rose up to battle and, with the help of family, friends and competent medical providers, she waged battle as a head shorn warrior and the cancer is now in remission.

And now, nearly 39 years after we became (apparently) forgettable classmates, Allison joined me on The Poet (delayed) to discuss the topic of “truth” and ways in which her experience with cancer has shaped the lens through which she sees the world.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is available at:

Amazon.com

The Kings English Bookshop

Special Guest: Allison Spencer.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity On April 11, 1984, my family moved to Bountiful, Utah from Ramstein Air Base in Germany. My mom had just passed away a few days earlier. One of the first orders of business when we got to Bountiful, was to enroll me and my siblings in school. I was enrolled at Hannah Holbrook Elementary School for the last couple of months of 4th grade, and was assigned to Ms. Boulton’s class. I don’t remember much from those couple of months nor do I really remember meeting anyone at the time other than a few friends who lived close to my house, John Mayer, for instance – but not that John Mayer. But in my class was a girl named Allison Coombs (now Spencer). We didn’t spend time together or hang out per se. In fact, I don’t have any memories of her. But last June, she friended me on Facebook and I knew her name and I knew her face immediately. She’s told me since that she doesn’t have any memories of me either – I was just the boy who came and went. In the months since, she has commented on a few of my posts and has been very kind and encouraging to me about my poetry and my podcast. And I’ve learned a few things about her as we’ve reconnected a friendship neither of us remembered having.

Among the things I’ve learned is that in November 2021, Allison was diagnosed with Stage 2 Unfavorable Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. (By the way, “unfavorable”? Who comes up with these terms, soccer match announcers? - “That was unlucky!”) But as terrifying as that was, she rose up to battle and, with the help of family, friends and competent medical providers, she waged battle as a head shorn warrior and the cancer is now in remission.

And now, nearly 39 years after we became (apparently) forgettable classmates, Allison joined me on The Poet (delayed) to discuss the topic of “truth” and ways in which her experience with cancer has shaped the lens through which she sees the world.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is available at:

Amazon.com

The Kings English Bookshop

Special Guest: Allison Spencer.

]]> On April 11, 1984, my family moved to Bountiful, Utah from Ramstein Air Base in Germany. My mom had just passed away a few days earlier. One of the first orders of business when we got to Bountiful, was to enroll me and my siblings in school. I was enrolled at Hannah Holbrook Elementary School for the last couple of months of 4th grade, and was assigned to Ms. Boulton’s class. I don’t remember much from those couple of months nor do I really remember meeting anyone at the time other than a few friends who lived close to my house, John Mayer, for instance – but not that John Mayer. But in my class was a girl named Allison Coombs (now Spencer). We didn’t spend time together or hang out per se. In fact, I don’t have any memories of her. But last June, she friended me on Facebook and I knew her name and I knew her face immediately. She’s told me since that she doesn’t have any memories of me either – I was just the boy who came and went. In the months since, she has commented on a few of my posts and has been very kind and encouraging to me about my poetry and my podcast. And I’ve learned a few things about her as we’ve reconnected a friendship neither of us remembered having.

Among the things I’ve learned is that in November 2021, Allison was diagnosed with Stage 2 Unfavorable Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. (By the way, “unfavorable”? Who comes up with these terms, soccer match announcers? - “That was unlucky!”) But as terrifying as that was, she rose up to battle and, with the help of family, friends and competent medical providers, she waged battle as a head shorn warrior and the cancer is now in remission.

And now, nearly 39 years after we became (apparently) forgettable classmates, Allison joined me on The Poet (delayed) to discuss the topic of “truth” and ways in which her experience with cancer has shaped the lens through which she sees the world.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my first book of poetry, My Mother Sleeps, is available at:

Amazon.com

The Kings English Bookshop

Special Guest: Allison Spencer.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+F6suoTc0 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Allison Spencer Episode 16: Nirvana https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/16 0995fb04-bc3f-4fec-9ee1-42cd685e0ef2 Mon, 19 Dec 2022 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 16 Nirvana full 1 Scott Edgar TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide is discussed in this episode. If anyone listening is struggling with suicidal ideation, please reach out to a friend or family member. There is also a national hotline in the USA that you can call: 988. I was joined by Monte Wingle as I ready my poem, Nirvana, and we discussed thoughts and ideas that came. Also, in the spirit of craving nothingness, we visited True Rest Float Spa to experience their float tank and see how close we could get to nothingness. 1:01:15 false Nirvana

I crave silence - clear and still,
And darkness too.
So complete
My body melds with it
Erasing the line where
Darkness ends and I begin.
I crave nothingness.

I was joined by Monte Wingle as I read my poem, Nirvana, and we discussed thoughts and ideas that came. Also, in the spirit of craving nothingness, we visited True Rest Float Spa to experience their float tank and see how close we could get to nothingness.

True REST Draper

Cover photo by: Lenka Sluneckova

Music: Prelude 2, by Max Richter

USA National Suicide Hotline (voice and text): 988
UK Suicide Hotline: 08006895652

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published my first book of poetry which is available at the following place:

Amazon.com

The Kings English Book Shop

Special Guest: Monte Wingle.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity Nirvana

I crave silence - clear and still,
And darkness too.
So complete
My body melds with it
Erasing the line where
Darkness ends and I begin.
I crave nothingness.

I was joined by Monte Wingle as I read my poem, Nirvana, and we discussed thoughts and ideas that came. Also, in the spirit of craving nothingness, we visited True Rest Float Spa to experience their float tank and see how close we could get to nothingness.

True REST Draper

Cover photo by: Lenka Sluneckova

Music: Prelude 2, by Max Richter

USA National Suicide Hotline (voice and text): 988
UK Suicide Hotline: 08006895652

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published my first book of poetry which is available at the following place:

Amazon.com

The Kings English Book Shop

Special Guest: Monte Wingle.

]]> Nirvana

I crave silence - clear and still,
And darkness too.
So complete
My body melds with it
Erasing the line where
Darkness ends and I begin.
I crave nothingness.

I was joined by Monte Wingle as I read my poem, Nirvana, and we discussed thoughts and ideas that came. Also, in the spirit of craving nothingness, we visited True Rest Float Spa to experience their float tank and see how close we could get to nothingness.

True REST Draper

Cover photo by: Lenka Sluneckova

Music: Prelude 2, by Max Richter

USA National Suicide Hotline (voice and text): 988
UK Suicide Hotline: 08006895652

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published my first book of poetry which is available at the following place:

Amazon.com

The Kings English Book Shop

Special Guest: Monte Wingle.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+7d2WU2AO ]]> Scott R. Edgar Monte Wingle Episode 15: Terrible Potential https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/15 cb637ccf-0492-49e5-9489-77d81f6c5dda Sat, 12 Nov 2022 05:00:00 -0700 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 15 Terrible Potential full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I was joined by my nephew, Justin “Justino” Foster. I read my poem “Terrible Potential” and Justino and had a great discussion about the themes in the poem. 1:20:26 false TERRIBLE POTENTIAL

I see it now
For years I only sensed it
Or saw the dissipating dust tails of its approach
But it filled me with terror
And there was no cover or protection
So I ran
As fast as my child stride could take me
Not even knowing what it was –
Only that it was coming
But that made the fear so much more
In my little mind
So I ran harder
Until I forgot why I was running –
Only knowing that I couldn’t stop

But I see it now
Its shape is fluid and undefined
And its terrible potential fills my mind
I want to keep running – retreating
But it won’t stop and
It’s closing the gap and
It’s more terrible than I ever thought
But its real – I see it now
And I know
There’s no escape, there never was.
But I want to keep running anyway
Until it overtakes me
I won’t see it coming; it will just happen and be done
But my insufficient legs refuse to carry me anymore
So I prostrate myself as an offering

I know you’re coming, I whisper,
And I offer myself willingly

This is not defeat, I reassure myself
Then lower my eyes
And brace for its fury

But my mind keeps moving – defiantly
It knows truths that my body forgot
And reminds me:

You were born with claws
And they’re with you still –

And I remember and feel them
They are deep, but I feel them and they are there
So, I raise my body from the dirt and
My eyes to the distance
It is closer now – the gap disappearing
But not my fear. My fear is growing
(broadcast loudly by my beating heart)
But I no longer want to run
Nor offer myself willingly
Instead, I watch it come and I wait – in fear, true
But I wait to receive it
And I steady myself.

I have claws and I feel them
And I will meet it face to face
I have terrible potential too
I feel it now.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my poetry that I read on this podcast was recently published in my book My Mother Sleeps which is available at

Amazon.com

and

The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Justino Foster.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity TERRIBLE POTENTIAL

I see it now
For years I only sensed it
Or saw the dissipating dust tails of its approach
But it filled me with terror
And there was no cover or protection
So I ran
As fast as my child stride could take me
Not even knowing what it was –
Only that it was coming
But that made the fear so much more
In my little mind
So I ran harder
Until I forgot why I was running –
Only knowing that I couldn’t stop

But I see it now
Its shape is fluid and undefined
And its terrible potential fills my mind
I want to keep running – retreating
But it won’t stop and
It’s closing the gap and
It’s more terrible than I ever thought
But its real – I see it now
And I know
There’s no escape, there never was.
But I want to keep running anyway
Until it overtakes me
I won’t see it coming; it will just happen and be done
But my insufficient legs refuse to carry me anymore
So I prostrate myself as an offering

I know you’re coming, I whisper,
And I offer myself willingly

This is not defeat, I reassure myself
Then lower my eyes
And brace for its fury

But my mind keeps moving – defiantly
It knows truths that my body forgot
And reminds me:

You were born with claws
And they’re with you still –

And I remember and feel them
They are deep, but I feel them and they are there
So, I raise my body from the dirt and
My eyes to the distance
It is closer now – the gap disappearing
But not my fear. My fear is growing
(broadcast loudly by my beating heart)
But I no longer want to run
Nor offer myself willingly
Instead, I watch it come and I wait – in fear, true
But I wait to receive it
And I steady myself.

I have claws and I feel them
And I will meet it face to face
I have terrible potential too
I feel it now.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my poetry that I read on this podcast was recently published in my book My Mother Sleeps which is available at

Amazon.com

and

The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Justino Foster.

]]> TERRIBLE POTENTIAL

I see it now
For years I only sensed it
Or saw the dissipating dust tails of its approach
But it filled me with terror
And there was no cover or protection
So I ran
As fast as my child stride could take me
Not even knowing what it was –
Only that it was coming
But that made the fear so much more
In my little mind
So I ran harder
Until I forgot why I was running –
Only knowing that I couldn’t stop

But I see it now
Its shape is fluid and undefined
And its terrible potential fills my mind
I want to keep running – retreating
But it won’t stop and
It’s closing the gap and
It’s more terrible than I ever thought
But its real – I see it now
And I know
There’s no escape, there never was.
But I want to keep running anyway
Until it overtakes me
I won’t see it coming; it will just happen and be done
But my insufficient legs refuse to carry me anymore
So I prostrate myself as an offering

I know you’re coming, I whisper,
And I offer myself willingly

This is not defeat, I reassure myself
Then lower my eyes
And brace for its fury

But my mind keeps moving – defiantly
It knows truths that my body forgot
And reminds me:

You were born with claws
And they’re with you still –

And I remember and feel them
They are deep, but I feel them and they are there
So, I raise my body from the dirt and
My eyes to the distance
It is closer now – the gap disappearing
But not my fear. My fear is growing
(broadcast loudly by my beating heart)
But I no longer want to run
Nor offer myself willingly
Instead, I watch it come and I wait – in fear, true
But I wait to receive it
And I steady myself.

I have claws and I feel them
And I will meet it face to face
I have terrible potential too
I feel it now.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, my poetry that I read on this podcast was recently published in my book My Mother Sleeps which is available at

Amazon.com

and

The King's English Bookshop

Special Guest: Justino Foster.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+1qQUDwy5 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Justino Foster Episode 14: Beacons https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/14 c08e0d13-d3ef-4c10-874f-ee90d49604ed Thu, 27 Oct 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 14 Beacons full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined again by Aunt Kash to discuss people who’ve been beacons in our lives as well as our being beacons in the lives of others. 51:03 false BEACONS

In the days
When my horizons shifted,
I remember you and
The gifts you brought to me:

tenderness, love and protection.
But in my youthful confusion,
Knew not how to receive them –
I had known them from a different horizon.
But that horizon went dark in an instant
(without warning)
Though not entirely – there was protection still
But love and tenderness,
Those beacons were extinguished, it seemed,
Until they flamed up again,
But now on your horizon and
(without waiting)
You brought them to me –
Unconditionally and ad infinitum.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com:
My Mother Sleeps and On Becoming a Black Hole

Special Guest: Aunt Kash.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity BEACONS

In the days
When my horizons shifted,
I remember you and
The gifts you brought to me:

tenderness, love and protection.
But in my youthful confusion,
Knew not how to receive them –
I had known them from a different horizon.
But that horizon went dark in an instant
(without warning)
Though not entirely – there was protection still
But love and tenderness,
Those beacons were extinguished, it seemed,
Until they flamed up again,
But now on your horizon and
(without waiting)
You brought them to me –
Unconditionally and ad infinitum.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com:
My Mother Sleeps and On Becoming a Black Hole

Special Guest: Aunt Kash.

]]> BEACONS

In the days
When my horizons shifted,
I remember you and
The gifts you brought to me:

tenderness, love and protection.
But in my youthful confusion,
Knew not how to receive them –
I had known them from a different horizon.
But that horizon went dark in an instant
(without warning)
Though not entirely – there was protection still
But love and tenderness,
Those beacons were extinguished, it seemed,
Until they flamed up again,
But now on your horizon and
(without waiting)
You brought them to me –
Unconditionally and ad infinitum.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com:
My Mother Sleeps and On Becoming a Black Hole

Special Guest: Aunt Kash.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+jJBEBItp ]]> Scott R. Edgar Aunt Kash Episode 13: Inconsequential https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/13 06da6846-00f2-427b-ad17-c6fe95159279 Thu, 13 Oct 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 13 Inconsequential full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined by my friend Jason Langston as I read my poem, Inconsequential. Then we get into a discussion of connection, addiction, parenting and relationships and the fact that no person is inconsequential. As John Donne wrote (old English spelling and all): “No man is an Iland, intire of it selfe.” 52:48 true Inconsequential

At what point is my absence
Inconsequential?

When they’re too young to know the need?
(But that time is gone)

Certainly not now
In the midst of life’s straits
With foamy waves pounding
And hidden reefs lurking
Beneath an angry, fluid surface.
No; Not now.
Now they need a captain
(is that presumptuous?)
Who has already navigated a similar course –
though more Hazelwood than Magellan.
(well, all Hazelwood and no Magellan)

Perhaps that time will be
When they’ve helmed their own ship.
Is my absence inconsequential then?
Can I cross the bar then?
Of course they’ll think of me and perhaps
Want to see my face and
Hear my voice
(or have me hear their voice and see their face)
But would my absence harm them?
in those later years?
That is the question.

But here’s the better question:
Would my absence now
be better than running them aground,
again and again
and taking on salty water to no seeming end?

I’ve given it a go.
But the ship lists endlessly and
The course seems fucked.

Would the idea of me
Be better than the reality?
That is the real question.

No man is an Iland, intire of it selfe; every man is a peece of the Continent, a part of the maine; if a Clod bee washed away by the Sea, Europe is the lesse, as well as if a Promontorie were, as well as if a Mannor of thy friends or of thine owne were; any mans death diminishes me, because I am involved in Mankinde; And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; It tolls for thee.

  • John Donne, Meditation XVII (from Devotions Upon Emergent Occassions, 1623)

I'd love to hear any thoughts about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com:

My Mother Sleeps & On Becoming a Black Hole

Special Guest: Jason Langston.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity Inconsequential

At what point is my absence
Inconsequential?

When they’re too young to know the need?
(But that time is gone)

Certainly not now
In the midst of life’s straits
With foamy waves pounding
And hidden reefs lurking
Beneath an angry, fluid surface.
No; Not now.
Now they need a captain
(is that presumptuous?)
Who has already navigated a similar course –
though more Hazelwood than Magellan.
(well, all Hazelwood and no Magellan)

Perhaps that time will be
When they’ve helmed their own ship.
Is my absence inconsequential then?
Can I cross the bar then?
Of course they’ll think of me and perhaps
Want to see my face and
Hear my voice
(or have me hear their voice and see their face)
But would my absence harm them?
in those later years?
That is the question.

But here’s the better question:
Would my absence now
be better than running them aground,
again and again
and taking on salty water to no seeming end?

I’ve given it a go.
But the ship lists endlessly and
The course seems fucked.

Would the idea of me
Be better than the reality?
That is the real question.

No man is an Iland, intire of it selfe; every man is a peece of the Continent, a part of the maine; if a Clod bee washed away by the Sea, Europe is the lesse, as well as if a Promontorie were, as well as if a Mannor of thy friends or of thine owne were; any mans death diminishes me, because I am involved in Mankinde; And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; It tolls for thee.

  • John Donne, Meditation XVII (from Devotions Upon Emergent Occassions, 1623)

I'd love to hear any thoughts about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com:

My Mother Sleeps & On Becoming a Black Hole

Special Guest: Jason Langston.

]]> Inconsequential

At what point is my absence
Inconsequential?

When they’re too young to know the need?
(But that time is gone)

Certainly not now
In the midst of life’s straits
With foamy waves pounding
And hidden reefs lurking
Beneath an angry, fluid surface.
No; Not now.
Now they need a captain
(is that presumptuous?)
Who has already navigated a similar course –
though more Hazelwood than Magellan.
(well, all Hazelwood and no Magellan)

Perhaps that time will be
When they’ve helmed their own ship.
Is my absence inconsequential then?
Can I cross the bar then?
Of course they’ll think of me and perhaps
Want to see my face and
Hear my voice
(or have me hear their voice and see their face)
But would my absence harm them?
in those later years?
That is the question.

But here’s the better question:
Would my absence now
be better than running them aground,
again and again
and taking on salty water to no seeming end?

I’ve given it a go.
But the ship lists endlessly and
The course seems fucked.

Would the idea of me
Be better than the reality?
That is the real question.

No man is an Iland, intire of it selfe; every man is a peece of the Continent, a part of the maine; if a Clod bee washed away by the Sea, Europe is the lesse, as well as if a Promontorie were, as well as if a Mannor of thy friends or of thine owne were; any mans death diminishes me, because I am involved in Mankinde; And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; It tolls for thee.

  • John Donne, Meditation XVII (from Devotions Upon Emergent Occassions, 1623)

I'd love to hear any thoughts about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com:

My Mother Sleeps & On Becoming a Black Hole

Special Guest: Jason Langston.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+9kJBkAME ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jason Langston Episode 12: The Remains of the Day https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/12 2db08eab-20a6-46be-ba4a-ac1c3d328e21 Fri, 07 Oct 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 12 The Remains of the Day full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined by Nate Morris this episode as we discuss the book, The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro. 1:41:03 false I'd love to hear what your thoughts on the topics that were discussed in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

"The noble soul has reverence for itself." - Frederic Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

Special Guest: Nate Morris.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity I'd love to hear what your thoughts on the topics that were discussed in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

"The noble soul has reverence for itself." - Frederic Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

Special Guest: Nate Morris.

]]> I'd love to hear what your thoughts on the topics that were discussed in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

"The noble soul has reverence for itself." - Frederic Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

Special Guest: Nate Morris.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+ow5D_47_ ]]> Scott R. Edgar Nate Morris Episode 11: “The Sadness Will Last Forever” https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/11 98c15655-e1a3-40ac-a4d8-d032aaed5c32 Tue, 02 Aug 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 11 “The Sadness Will Last Forever” full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I read my poem, “The Sadness Will Last Forever,” which is about Vincent Van Gogh. I am joined by Adam Nisenson who is a therapist in Salt Lake City as well as an accomplished artist. We discuss creativity and its importance in our lives. 58:16 false I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

THE SADNESS WILL LAST FOREVER
I feel you here.
I sense your soul in the quiet darkness
Of the slow. flow of le Rhône
As she wanders under your
Starry Night
Past the place of your
Yellow House.
I sense you too in the day light,
As the yellow sun arcs
Through the sky of broad, blue strokes.
I see the fields, littered with Ancient Rome,
In your colors
yellows, greens and blues
As if painted in windmilled paints
Bright and layered thick.
And the heavenward sunflowers turn their heads.
As if searching for you
Wanting to be immortalized on your canvas.
But you've been gone for ages
Your sadness took you away.

Adam's questions to ask yourself about creativity:

  1. What does creativity mean to you?
  2. What is your greatest fear around creating art and sharing it?
  3. How does your inner critic affect your creative process and where are you most sensitive to criticism?
  4. When did you realize you were creative and how was that nurtured or not nurtured?
  5. When and what areas are you most open to criticism as it pertains to your art?

My first book of poetry can be purchased from Amazon by clicking this link: My Mother Sleeps

Special Guest: Adam Nisenson, MA, LAMFT, CSAT.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

THE SADNESS WILL LAST FOREVER
I feel you here.
I sense your soul in the quiet darkness
Of the slow. flow of le Rhône
As she wanders under your
Starry Night
Past the place of your
Yellow House.
I sense you too in the day light,
As the yellow sun arcs
Through the sky of broad, blue strokes.
I see the fields, littered with Ancient Rome,
In your colors
yellows, greens and blues
As if painted in windmilled paints
Bright and layered thick.
And the heavenward sunflowers turn their heads.
As if searching for you
Wanting to be immortalized on your canvas.
But you've been gone for ages
Your sadness took you away.

Adam's questions to ask yourself about creativity:

  1. What does creativity mean to you?
  2. What is your greatest fear around creating art and sharing it?
  3. How does your inner critic affect your creative process and where are you most sensitive to criticism?
  4. When did you realize you were creative and how was that nurtured or not nurtured?
  5. When and what areas are you most open to criticism as it pertains to your art?

My first book of poetry can be purchased from Amazon by clicking this link: My Mother Sleeps

Special Guest: Adam Nisenson, MA, LAMFT, CSAT.

]]> I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

THE SADNESS WILL LAST FOREVER
I feel you here.
I sense your soul in the quiet darkness
Of the slow. flow of le Rhône
As she wanders under your
Starry Night
Past the place of your
Yellow House.
I sense you too in the day light,
As the yellow sun arcs
Through the sky of broad, blue strokes.
I see the fields, littered with Ancient Rome,
In your colors
yellows, greens and blues
As if painted in windmilled paints
Bright and layered thick.
And the heavenward sunflowers turn their heads.
As if searching for you
Wanting to be immortalized on your canvas.
But you've been gone for ages
Your sadness took you away.

Adam's questions to ask yourself about creativity:

  1. What does creativity mean to you?
  2. What is your greatest fear around creating art and sharing it?
  3. How does your inner critic affect your creative process and where are you most sensitive to criticism?
  4. When did you realize you were creative and how was that nurtured or not nurtured?
  5. When and what areas are you most open to criticism as it pertains to your art?

My first book of poetry can be purchased from Amazon by clicking this link: My Mother Sleeps

Special Guest: Adam Nisenson, MA, LAMFT, CSAT.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+SYzv0C12 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Adam Nisenson, MA, LAMFT, CSAT Episode 10: A Subtle Wound https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/10 102b9b30-5399-4a88-bfaf-584ef9bd7bb1 Sat, 23 Jul 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 10 A Subtle Wound full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode I read and discuss my poem “A Subtle Wound” with Jackie Pack. We talk about the importance of connection and holding space for those who’ve experienced trauma. 55:53 false I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

A SUBTLE WOUND
You left me when my world
Was measured by a child's stride.
You had to go away for awhile,
I was told
To ease me into the truth:
You were gone
And not coming back.

It was involuntary, I know
Your leaving
But intent is not part
Of trauma's calculus
So I was not spared -
Though the wound went unnoticed:
There was no nervous response
Or reflexive recoil
As when you touch a hot pan.
It was subtle:
no bleeding, no blistered flesh.
Just a change in routine
And one less setting at the table.

Jackie Pack's Podcast:
Thanks for Sharing

If you're interested, I recently published a book of poetry which is available on Amazon.com: My Mother Sleeps

Episode Cover Art by Ginny Rose Stewart on Unsplash

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

A SUBTLE WOUND
You left me when my world
Was measured by a child's stride.
You had to go away for awhile,
I was told
To ease me into the truth:
You were gone
And not coming back.

It was involuntary, I know
Your leaving
But intent is not part
Of trauma's calculus
So I was not spared -
Though the wound went unnoticed:
There was no nervous response
Or reflexive recoil
As when you touch a hot pan.
It was subtle:
no bleeding, no blistered flesh.
Just a change in routine
And one less setting at the table.

Jackie Pack's Podcast:
Thanks for Sharing

If you're interested, I recently published a book of poetry which is available on Amazon.com: My Mother Sleeps

Episode Cover Art by Ginny Rose Stewart on Unsplash

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

A SUBTLE WOUND
You left me when my world
Was measured by a child's stride.
You had to go away for awhile,
I was told
To ease me into the truth:
You were gone
And not coming back.

It was involuntary, I know
Your leaving
But intent is not part
Of trauma's calculus
So I was not spared -
Though the wound went unnoticed:
There was no nervous response
Or reflexive recoil
As when you touch a hot pan.
It was subtle:
no bleeding, no blistered flesh.
Just a change in routine
And one less setting at the table.

Jackie Pack's Podcast:
Thanks for Sharing

If you're interested, I recently published a book of poetry which is available on Amazon.com: My Mother Sleeps

Episode Cover Art by Ginny Rose Stewart on Unsplash

Special Guest: Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+lk1BLY8Y ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jackie Pack, LCSW, CSAT-S, CMAT Episode 9: Bonus: “Elvis” Movie Review https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/9 64a1bead-d37d-46fb-bf31-c88035e7f8d8 Sun, 26 Jun 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 9 Bonus: “Elvis” Movie Review full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined by Jason Small again. This time to review the new Elvis movie by Baz Luhrmann. 1:00:56 false Jason and I watched the new Elvis movie Thursday night and this is our review.

We both gave it 8 blue suede shoes out 10.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

Special Guest: Jason Small.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity, Elvis Presley, Austin butler, Elvis 2022, baz luhrmann Jason and I watched the new Elvis movie Thursday night and this is our review.

We both gave it 8 blue suede shoes out 10.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

Special Guest: Jason Small.

]]> Jason and I watched the new Elvis movie Thursday night and this is our review.

We both gave it 8 blue suede shoes out 10.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

Special Guest: Jason Small.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+YT9_dKpE ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jason Small Episode 8: Besieged https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/8 c5d5ce8a-ef35-4d83-a137-599a3e6c6485 Sat, 25 Jun 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 8 Besieged full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined by Jason Small in this episode as I read my poem “Besieged” and we discuss the difficulty of facing challenges to our way of thinking and being and how we’ve dealt with it. 1:03:58 false I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

I’m joined by Jason Small in this episode as I read my poem “Besieged” and we discuss the difficulty of facing challenges to our way of thinking and being and how we’ve dealt with it.

BESIEGED

Possibilities march
On my walled city of certainties
And lay siege.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon

My Mother Sleeps

Special Guest: Jason Small.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

I’m joined by Jason Small in this episode as I read my poem “Besieged” and we discuss the difficulty of facing challenges to our way of thinking and being and how we’ve dealt with it.

BESIEGED

Possibilities march
On my walled city of certainties
And lay siege.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon

My Mother Sleeps

Special Guest: Jason Small.

]]> I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

I’m joined by Jason Small in this episode as I read my poem “Besieged” and we discuss the difficulty of facing challenges to our way of thinking and being and how we’ve dealt with it.

BESIEGED

Possibilities march
On my walled city of certainties
And lay siege.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon

My Mother Sleeps

Special Guest: Jason Small.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+dpb63igv ]]> Scott R. Edgar Jason Small Episode 7: Your Father's Son https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/7 30a41b50-bb5e-4d33-905e-fb2604536b7e Sat, 18 Jun 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 7 Your Father's Son full 1 Scott Edgar I’m joined by my friend, Ryan Thomas as I read my poem, “Your Father’s Son”, and we discuss fatherhood and parenting. 56:53 false I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were
discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

YOUR FATHER’S SON

Your soul was large
It needed to consume newness
again and again
But the Chicago frontier
Hemmed you in
You couldn't expand.
So you crossed the cold,
Impersonal Atlantic
To the hot,
Exploding Italian front
Where death nearly took you.
It was simple, you said
You looked at it and knew
But you consumed it and moved
Gaining immunity, it seemed
For death couldn't take you
On its own- though it tried
again and again
But it couldn't take you –
until Ketchum
Where your father's shadow waited.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon

Thank you for listening.

Special Guest: Ryan Thomas.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were
discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

YOUR FATHER’S SON

Your soul was large
It needed to consume newness
again and again
But the Chicago frontier
Hemmed you in
You couldn't expand.
So you crossed the cold,
Impersonal Atlantic
To the hot,
Exploding Italian front
Where death nearly took you.
It was simple, you said
You looked at it and knew
But you consumed it and moved
Gaining immunity, it seemed
For death couldn't take you
On its own- though it tried
again and again
But it couldn't take you –
until Ketchum
Where your father's shadow waited.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon

Thank you for listening.

Special Guest: Ryan Thomas.

]]> I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were
discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

YOUR FATHER’S SON

Your soul was large
It needed to consume newness
again and again
But the Chicago frontier
Hemmed you in
You couldn't expand.
So you crossed the cold,
Impersonal Atlantic
To the hot,
Exploding Italian front
Where death nearly took you.
It was simple, you said
You looked at it and knew
But you consumed it and moved
Gaining immunity, it seemed
For death couldn't take you
On its own- though it tried
again and again
But it couldn't take you –
until Ketchum
Where your father's shadow waited.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon

Thank you for listening.

Special Guest: Ryan Thomas.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+F9XtEoC5 ]]> Scott R. Edgar Ryan Thomas Episode 6: On Pain by Khalil Gibran https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/6 12eed222-cf24-4a4a-b6e1-8dfabcbcf46d Wed, 15 Jun 2022 05:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 6 On Pain by Khalil Gibran full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I read Khalil Gibran’s passage on pain from his book, The Prophet and discuss pain, including discomfort and fear, and the impact it’s had in my life. I also, discuss ways that I’ve found to work through pain such as finding meaning in it. 47:02 false In this episode, I read Khalil Gibran’s passage on pain from his book, The Prophet and discuss pain, including discomfort and fear, and the impact it’s had in my life. I also, discuss ways that I’ve found to work through pain such as finding meaning in it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

On Pain

And a woman spoke, saying, Tell us of Pain.

And he said:
Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses
your understanding.

Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its
heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.

And could you keep your heart in wonder at the
daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem
less wondrous than your joy;

And you would accept the seasons of your heart,
even as you have always accepted the seasons that
pass over your fields.

And you would watch with serenity through the
winters of your grief.

Much of your pain is self-chosen.

It is the bitter potion by which the physician within
you heals your sick self.

Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy
in silence and tranquillity:

For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided by
the tender hand of the Unseen,

And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has
been fashioned of the clay which the Potter has
moistened with His own sacred tears.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity In this episode, I read Khalil Gibran’s passage on pain from his book, The Prophet and discuss pain, including discomfort and fear, and the impact it’s had in my life. I also, discuss ways that I’ve found to work through pain such as finding meaning in it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

On Pain

And a woman spoke, saying, Tell us of Pain.

And he said:
Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses
your understanding.

Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its
heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.

And could you keep your heart in wonder at the
daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem
less wondrous than your joy;

And you would accept the seasons of your heart,
even as you have always accepted the seasons that
pass over your fields.

And you would watch with serenity through the
winters of your grief.

Much of your pain is self-chosen.

It is the bitter potion by which the physician within
you heals your sick self.

Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy
in silence and tranquillity:

For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided by
the tender hand of the Unseen,

And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has
been fashioned of the clay which the Potter has
moistened with His own sacred tears.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

]]> In this episode, I read Khalil Gibran’s passage on pain from his book, The Prophet and discuss pain, including discomfort and fear, and the impact it’s had in my life. I also, discuss ways that I’ve found to work through pain such as finding meaning in it.

I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

On Pain

And a woman spoke, saying, Tell us of Pain.

And he said:
Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses
your understanding.

Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its
heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.

And could you keep your heart in wonder at the
daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem
less wondrous than your joy;

And you would accept the seasons of your heart,
even as you have always accepted the seasons that
pass over your fields.

And you would watch with serenity through the
winters of your grief.

Much of your pain is self-chosen.

It is the bitter potion by which the physician within
you heals your sick self.

Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy
in silence and tranquillity:

For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided by
the tender hand of the Unseen,

And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has
been fashioned of the clay which the Potter has
moistened with His own sacred tears.

If you're interested, I recently published two books of poetry which are available on Amazon.com

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+zsGY3_7E ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 5: "Emperor Concerto," II https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/5 193660a7-66c2-42fa-99b3-e4b5c16808f3 Tue, 14 Jun 2022 08:30:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 5 "Emperor Concerto," II full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I read my poem, “Emperor Concerto, II” and I’m joined by Ric de Azevedo as we discuss the power of music. 37:52 false In this episode, I read my poem, “Emperor Concerto, II” and I’m joined by Ric de Azevedo as we discuss the power of music.

“EMPEROR CONCERTO” II

The strings prepare me
Like a good opening act,
For the moment the piano comes in
Like a ballerina on point
Delicately entering the stage.
I’m speechless every time.
In awe (reverent almost)
As my body absorbs the sound waves
Harnessed two centuries ago by a deaf man
Who arranged them into beauty
Then converted them to ink and
Stained them on paper.
And now I sit, transfixed,
As a modern-day acoustic alchemist
Transmutes the ink back into waves
And floods me with euphoria.

[Beethoven's Piano Concerto No. 5 in E-Flat Major, OP. 73 "Emperor," II. Adagio un poco moto (mosso)]

Real Live Girl

I'd love to hear what you have to say bout the episode including thoughts on the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Special Guest: Ric de Azevedo.

]]> poetry, poet, healing from trauma, c-ptsd, recovery from trauma, life change, self discovery, authenticity In this episode, I read my poem, “Emperor Concerto, II” and I’m joined by Ric de Azevedo as we discuss the power of music.

“EMPEROR CONCERTO” II

The strings prepare me
Like a good opening act,
For the moment the piano comes in
Like a ballerina on point
Delicately entering the stage.
I’m speechless every time.
In awe (reverent almost)
As my body absorbs the sound waves
Harnessed two centuries ago by a deaf man
Who arranged them into beauty
Then converted them to ink and
Stained them on paper.
And now I sit, transfixed,
As a modern-day acoustic alchemist
Transmutes the ink back into waves
And floods me with euphoria.

[Beethoven's Piano Concerto No. 5 in E-Flat Major, OP. 73 "Emperor," II. Adagio un poco moto (mosso)]

Real Live Girl

I'd love to hear what you have to say bout the episode including thoughts on the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Special Guest: Ric de Azevedo.

]]> In this episode, I read my poem, “Emperor Concerto, II” and I’m joined by Ric de Azevedo as we discuss the power of music.

“EMPEROR CONCERTO” II

The strings prepare me
Like a good opening act,
For the moment the piano comes in
Like a ballerina on point
Delicately entering the stage.
I’m speechless every time.
In awe (reverent almost)
As my body absorbs the sound waves
Harnessed two centuries ago by a deaf man
Who arranged them into beauty
Then converted them to ink and
Stained them on paper.
And now I sit, transfixed,
As a modern-day acoustic alchemist
Transmutes the ink back into waves
And floods me with euphoria.

[Beethoven's Piano Concerto No. 5 in E-Flat Major, OP. 73 "Emperor," II. Adagio un poco moto (mosso)]

Real Live Girl

I'd love to hear what you have to say bout the episode including thoughts on the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Special Guest: Ric de Azevedo.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+wDp9WSJs ]]> Scott R. Edgar Ric de Azevedo Episode 4: Unconditional https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/4 d6590140-5c6f-4efb-b2da-9bbce3b69cc1 Wed, 08 Jun 2022 20:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 4 Unconditional full 1 Scott Edgar In this episode, I read my poem, “Unconditional” and then talk with my Aunt Kash about mothers and “unconditional love.” 47:16 false I'd love to hear your thoughts and comments regarding the topics discussed in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com. Thank you for listening!

UNCONDITIONAL

Thrust into mortality
New and unbroken yet
And you,
Having just crossed the valley,
With tender reach
Pull me close to your body
Which was broken for me.
In your safety,
Your heartbeat communicates to me
Of love
Of possession –
I belong to you.
In that moment,
I alone am your world.
I alone am your joy.

Poems read by Aunt Kash:

Triolet Against Sister, Phyllis McGinley

Sisters are always drying their hair.
Locked into rooms, alone,
They pose at the mirror, shoulders bare,
Trying this way and that their hair,
Or fly importunate down the stair
To answer a telephone.
Sisters are always drying their hair,
Locked into rooms, alone.

Troilet Against Sisters with notes by Aunt Kash's mom

Emily Dickinson poem recited by Aunt Kash's mom:

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.

Also, if any of you are interested, I recently self-published a couple books of poetry and they are for sale on Amazon.com (only in paperback at the moment).

My books

Episode image is my mother and my sister, Melissa.

Special Guest: Aunt Kash.

]]> unconditional love, mother, son, birth, death of parent I'd love to hear your thoughts and comments regarding the topics discussed in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com. Thank you for listening!

UNCONDITIONAL

Thrust into mortality
New and unbroken yet
And you,
Having just crossed the valley,
With tender reach
Pull me close to your body
Which was broken for me.
In your safety,
Your heartbeat communicates to me
Of love
Of possession –
I belong to you.
In that moment,
I alone am your world.
I alone am your joy.

Poems read by Aunt Kash:

Triolet Against Sister, Phyllis McGinley

Sisters are always drying their hair.
Locked into rooms, alone,
They pose at the mirror, shoulders bare,
Trying this way and that their hair,
Or fly importunate down the stair
To answer a telephone.
Sisters are always drying their hair,
Locked into rooms, alone.

Troilet Against Sisters with notes by Aunt Kash's mom

Emily Dickinson poem recited by Aunt Kash's mom:

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.

Also, if any of you are interested, I recently self-published a couple books of poetry and they are for sale on Amazon.com (only in paperback at the moment).

My books

Episode image is my mother and my sister, Melissa.

Special Guest: Aunt Kash.

]]> I'd love to hear your thoughts and comments regarding the topics discussed in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com. Thank you for listening!

UNCONDITIONAL

Thrust into mortality
New and unbroken yet
And you,
Having just crossed the valley,
With tender reach
Pull me close to your body
Which was broken for me.
In your safety,
Your heartbeat communicates to me
Of love
Of possession –
I belong to you.
In that moment,
I alone am your world.
I alone am your joy.

Poems read by Aunt Kash:

Triolet Against Sister, Phyllis McGinley

Sisters are always drying their hair.
Locked into rooms, alone,
They pose at the mirror, shoulders bare,
Trying this way and that their hair,
Or fly importunate down the stair
To answer a telephone.
Sisters are always drying their hair,
Locked into rooms, alone.

Troilet Against Sisters with notes by Aunt Kash's mom

Emily Dickinson poem recited by Aunt Kash's mom:

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.

Also, if any of you are interested, I recently self-published a couple books of poetry and they are for sale on Amazon.com (only in paperback at the moment).

My books

Episode image is my mother and my sister, Melissa.

Special Guest: Aunt Kash.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+nAZBnt9V ]]> Scott R. Edgar Aunt Kash Episode 3: Forgotten Walls https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/3 0c5144c2-5493-4b43-ad0f-daeb23d3b9b8 Thu, 02 Jun 2022 13:15:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 3 Forgotten Walls full 1 Scott Edgar I read my poem "Forgotten Walls" and discuss it with my guest, Josh Baron. 54:20 false I'd love to hear any of your thoughts or comments regarding my poem or our discussion in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Thanks for listening.

FORGOTTEN WALLS

Clarity comes
And the walls reveal themselves –
tall, strong and immovable.
In the haze and fog,
Which is his daily walk,
Their existence is blurred;
They are forgotten
Though he was there when they were built,
and even added stones.
Now in clarity, he looks to bring them down –
stone by stone.
And so he works relentlessly,
with pick and hammer
As his salty sweat stings his eyes and
His muscles and mind fatigue.
Yet his only yield from this Sisyphean task is
Bloodied palms and frustration,
While the stones remain, one upon the other.
Then slowly and imperceptibly,
(under cover of his exhausted heart and mind)
The fog seeps back again
And hides the stony barricade.

The image used as the cover art and on the header is a painting of Sisyphus by Titian.

[](By Titian - [2], Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=3860214)

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> walls, trauma, depression, failure, trauma, mental health, change, sisyphus I'd love to hear any of your thoughts or comments regarding my poem or our discussion in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Thanks for listening.

FORGOTTEN WALLS

Clarity comes
And the walls reveal themselves –
tall, strong and immovable.
In the haze and fog,
Which is his daily walk,
Their existence is blurred;
They are forgotten
Though he was there when they were built,
and even added stones.
Now in clarity, he looks to bring them down –
stone by stone.
And so he works relentlessly,
with pick and hammer
As his salty sweat stings his eyes and
His muscles and mind fatigue.
Yet his only yield from this Sisyphean task is
Bloodied palms and frustration,
While the stones remain, one upon the other.
Then slowly and imperceptibly,
(under cover of his exhausted heart and mind)
The fog seeps back again
And hides the stony barricade.

The image used as the cover art and on the header is a painting of Sisyphus by Titian.

[](By Titian - [2], Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=3860214)

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> I'd love to hear any of your thoughts or comments regarding my poem or our discussion in this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com.

Thanks for listening.

FORGOTTEN WALLS

Clarity comes
And the walls reveal themselves –
tall, strong and immovable.
In the haze and fog,
Which is his daily walk,
Their existence is blurred;
They are forgotten
Though he was there when they were built,
and even added stones.
Now in clarity, he looks to bring them down –
stone by stone.
And so he works relentlessly,
with pick and hammer
As his salty sweat stings his eyes and
His muscles and mind fatigue.
Yet his only yield from this Sisyphean task is
Bloodied palms and frustration,
While the stones remain, one upon the other.
Then slowly and imperceptibly,
(under cover of his exhausted heart and mind)
The fog seeps back again
And hides the stony barricade.

The image used as the cover art and on the header is a painting of Sisyphus by Titian.

[](By Titian - [2], Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=3860214)

Special Guest: Josh Baron.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+6PaureFq ]]> Scott R. Edgar Josh Baron Episode 2: [Ignorant before the heavens of my life] by Rainer Maria Rilke https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/2 27d5674a-d0fb-4de9-bf2f-131ed08c6e14 Wed, 01 Jun 2022 11:15:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 2 [Ignorant before the heavens of my life] by Rainer Maria Rilke full 1 Scott Edgar Read and discuss Rilke’s [Ignorant before the heavens of my life] 28:00 false Life is tragic and it is easy to get bogged down to the point where we just wake, eat, work, sleep, repeat or we suffer traumatic events that may cause us to withdraw into a seemingly protected existence. In both instances, we miss out on living a meaningful life and on experiencing the invigoration of being human. I feel that this poem by Rilke discusses the moment we become aware that there is a vibrant life to be lived and the realizations surrounding that awareness. It seems to encapsulate the beginning or the call of the mythological hero's journey.

[Ignorant before the heavens of my life]

Ignorant before the heavens of my life,
I stand and gaze in wonder. Oh the vastness
of the stars. Their rising and descent. How still.
As if I didn't exist. Do I have any
share in this? Have I somehow dispensed with
their pure effect? Does my blood's ebb and flow
change with their changes? Let me put aside
every desire, every relationship
except this one, so that my heart grows used to
its farthest spaces. Better that it live
fully aware, in the terror of its stars, than
as if protected, soothed by what is near.

RM Rilke

I'd love to hear any comments or thoughts about this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com. Thanks for listening.

]]> Rilke, poetry, hero’s journey, personal authenticity, ignorant before the heavens of my life Life is tragic and it is easy to get bogged down to the point where we just wake, eat, work, sleep, repeat or we suffer traumatic events that may cause us to withdraw into a seemingly protected existence. In both instances, we miss out on living a meaningful life and on experiencing the invigoration of being human. I feel that this poem by Rilke discusses the moment we become aware that there is a vibrant life to be lived and the realizations surrounding that awareness. It seems to encapsulate the beginning or the call of the mythological hero's journey.

[Ignorant before the heavens of my life]

Ignorant before the heavens of my life,
I stand and gaze in wonder. Oh the vastness
of the stars. Their rising and descent. How still.
As if I didn't exist. Do I have any
share in this? Have I somehow dispensed with
their pure effect? Does my blood's ebb and flow
change with their changes? Let me put aside
every desire, every relationship
except this one, so that my heart grows used to
its farthest spaces. Better that it live
fully aware, in the terror of its stars, than
as if protected, soothed by what is near.

RM Rilke

I'd love to hear any comments or thoughts about this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com. Thanks for listening.

]]> Life is tragic and it is easy to get bogged down to the point where we just wake, eat, work, sleep, repeat or we suffer traumatic events that may cause us to withdraw into a seemingly protected existence. In both instances, we miss out on living a meaningful life and on experiencing the invigoration of being human. I feel that this poem by Rilke discusses the moment we become aware that there is a vibrant life to be lived and the realizations surrounding that awareness. It seems to encapsulate the beginning or the call of the mythological hero's journey.

[Ignorant before the heavens of my life]

Ignorant before the heavens of my life,
I stand and gaze in wonder. Oh the vastness
of the stars. Their rising and descent. How still.
As if I didn't exist. Do I have any
share in this? Have I somehow dispensed with
their pure effect? Does my blood's ebb and flow
change with their changes? Let me put aside
every desire, every relationship
except this one, so that my heart grows used to
its farthest spaces. Better that it live
fully aware, in the terror of its stars, than
as if protected, soothed by what is near.

RM Rilke

I'd love to hear any comments or thoughts about this episode. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com. Thanks for listening.

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+7KXAunyd ]]> Scott R. Edgar Episode 1: The Poet’s Call https://blessed-pine-5317.fireside.fm/1 4432c59c-a41d-4bde-82a3-4b9527862c96 Tue, 24 May 2022 08:00:00 -0600 poetdelayed@gmail.com (Scott Edgar) 1 The Poet’s Call full 1 Scott Edgar Introduction to the Podcast. 36:52 false I've spent most of my life hacking at the branches of my problems and having no sustained improvement as a result. Over the last few years, the roots have started to be more clear to me and now I'm making more efforts to strike them. One of the axes that I use is poetry - writing poetry, specifically. In this first episode I discuss that process and I share and talk about my poem "The Poet's Call."

The Poet's Call

Write hard words
To break your soul against
Redemptive words too
To bind it up again.

_Also, I referenced a poem by E. E. Cummings _

may I be I is the only prayer--not may I be great or good or beautiful or wise or strong. - Cummings

and one by Rainer Maria Rilke.

God speaks to each of us as he makes us,
then walks with us silently out of the night.

These are the words we dimly hear:

You, sent out beyond your recall,
go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.

Flare up like a flame
and make big shadows I can move in.

Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don’t let yourself lose me.

Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.

Give me your hand.

Book of Hours, I 59

]]> Recovery, childhood trauma, poetry, emotional trauma, authenticity, self discovery I've spent most of my life hacking at the branches of my problems and having no sustained improvement as a result. Over the last few years, the roots have started to be more clear to me and now I'm making more efforts to strike them. One of the axes that I use is poetry - writing poetry, specifically. In this first episode I discuss that process and I share and talk about my poem "The Poet's Call."

The Poet's Call

Write hard words
To break your soul against
Redemptive words too
To bind it up again.

_Also, I referenced a poem by E. E. Cummings _

may I be I is the only prayer--not may I be great or good or beautiful or wise or strong. - Cummings

and one by Rainer Maria Rilke.

God speaks to each of us as he makes us,
then walks with us silently out of the night.

These are the words we dimly hear:

You, sent out beyond your recall,
go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.

Flare up like a flame
and make big shadows I can move in.

Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don’t let yourself lose me.

Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.

Give me your hand.

Book of Hours, I 59

]]> I've spent most of my life hacking at the branches of my problems and having no sustained improvement as a result. Over the last few years, the roots have started to be more clear to me and now I'm making more efforts to strike them. One of the axes that I use is poetry - writing poetry, specifically. In this first episode I discuss that process and I share and talk about my poem "The Poet's Call."

The Poet's Call

Write hard words
To break your soul against
Redemptive words too
To bind it up again.

_Also, I referenced a poem by E. E. Cummings _

may I be I is the only prayer--not may I be great or good or beautiful or wise or strong. - Cummings

and one by Rainer Maria Rilke.

God speaks to each of us as he makes us,
then walks with us silently out of the night.

These are the words we dimly hear:

You, sent out beyond your recall,
go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.

Flare up like a flame
and make big shadows I can move in.

Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don’t let yourself lose me.

Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.

Give me your hand.

Book of Hours, I 59

]]> https://fireside.fm/player/v2/dPcHKTjj+DNm4WM6H ]]> Scott R. Edgar